Even with all these people around, she still felt empty.
Something was missing, someone was missing.
Dave was missing.
Nobody could replace him no matter how much they tried.
She had a lot of male friends.
Some trying to get her while some just on a normal friend zone but nobody seemed like him.
Nobody gave her his energy.
Alex was a 27 year old guy.
He was dark in complexion.
His height was 6'3
Mind you, he was really tall.
He had a car and a job.
He kept something like drake on his head but began to go on low cut when Jasmine complained that she didn't like the haircut and she felt low cut was better.
He had nice legs and a very good fashion sense.
That was the only reason Jasmine like him.
They met one certain night when Jasmine went out to get airtime.
It was a small shop close to where she stayed.
She was listening to music as usual and didn't pay him any mind. Although she admired his legs, that was all.
They were attended to the same time whereas he was there before her.
Maybe because hers was just airtime.
They began to leave and he tried initiating a conversation with her.
''Uhm, hey I'm Alexander, but you can call me Alex for short.'' he smiled sweetly at her.
''Okay,'' She responded.
"C'mon don't be like that. you're too pretty to be rude.'' Alex stated, making Jasmine chuckle.
''I'm not being rude. . .
I'm not just interested in talking to a stranger I've never seen in my life,'' She stated.
''Okay. I would like to have the title of a friend in your life if you don't mind.''
No response.
''At least can I get to know your name?''
''Nicole.''
She said and walked away before he could say anything else.
He liked her!
{A/N: Here's a picture of Alex.}
***
Jasmine got home and she didn't really care about the guy she just met minutes ago.
She had more things on her mind to think about.
She hoped they would never cross paths again.
He looked kinda old and she didn't want to be friends with someone as big as he was.
She went into her room and turned off the lights.
Lately, she began to like the colour black and darkness a lot.
Her heart was heavy and she missed Dave like there was no tomorrow.
How could she forget about this guy!?
Was he also missing her as much as much as she missed him!?
Was she the only one feeling all this pain?
She went on to youtube and searched ''how to move on from someone who doesn't love you.''
Many results came out and she tapped on that of Steve Harvey.
She liked him a lot because whenever he spoke, he spoke wisdom.
It was a 15 minute video and everything he said sank well into her head and also made her more convinced that this nigga didn't give two fucks about her.
She watched up to 8 different videos.
She didn't even know she was crying until the last video stopped playing.
She turned on the lights and stood In front of her mirror as she began to speak to herself.
''Wipe your tears baby girl you don't deserve to be this way.
A guy can't have you this broken.
You are strong.
You are a fighter.
You will come out of this.
All of this will be over soon.
This pain in your heart, it will cease one day.
Just one day..
You will find someone who will appreciate and love you without having to beg or ask for it.''
She already had that.
Ryan.
But she didn't feel the same way towards him.
She continued with her self motivation.
"But I just want to know why tho.
Why did God send him to my life if I won't be able to have him?
Why did I have to fall so deep without control?
Why do I have to end up this way?
Why do I have to live in pretence?
Why can't I just be happy?
Life is sad.
Life is fucked up.
Life is a mess.
My life is a mess!"
It was just so funny how her mom lived in the same house with her but never noticed her daughter was dying slowly every second that passed by.
She needed to write more quotes.
That was the only way she could get a little bit of emotion out of her asides crying.
She became a writer and a crybaby because of a boy.
Motherfucking love!
She went to her writing app and began to type.
''If only you know what you do to me.
If only you know the pain you make me go through,
If only you know the things you turned me into.
I wake up in the middle of the night, sad for no reason.
And I go through sad shits to make me more sad.
I see some quotes telling me I'll be fine but the question is when!?
Because right now, I'm tired of waiting.
I'm tired of hanging on.
I'm tired of pretending to be fine when I'm not.
You changed my life
You made me a sad bitch,
Thank you very much.''
Tears dropping from her eyes while she was typing every fucking word.
She posted it on her Instagram and went to her playlist
Halley's comet by Billie Eilish came on.
She turned off her light and laid on her bed singing along to the song.
Silly me to fall in love with you!
**********
The next morning was Monday and she had school to attend.
She was up as early as 4am and she went to stand at her balcony
Expecting to see Dave.
She didn't know why, but she just stood there, hoping he would pass by.
A lot of people jogged past and she saw people who looked like him but wasn't him.
''Fuck it!" She cussed.
"I'm just wasting my time
He's prolly sleeping rn.
Why do I even think he still cares?''
She went in and watched sad videos till it was 5:30am.
She then went into the bathroom sluggishly to brush her teeth.
When she was done brushing, she sat on the toilet seat and began to reminisce about the past as surrender by Natalie Taylor was playing on her phone.
{Flashback begins}
A/N: listen to surrender by Natalie Taylor for this one.
Dave
I have to go to bed now tho.
I have a match by 8am today and I have to leave my house as early as 5am to meet up.
Jasmine
Oh
I have to be up early to wish you luck then
You know whenever I do,you always play well and score😊✨
Dave
Yeah ikr
I don't know how you manage to do it tho but whenever you ask me to ''score for you'' I find myself playing with everything in me so I won't let you down.
I guess you're the angel God sent to my life✨🔐😅
But I don't want to be the reason you don't sleep well tho,
So never mind.
I know your luck will always be with me as long as we're cool❤.
Jasmine
Aww🙊☺
I promise I'll be there tomorrow.
I'll be up by 5am exactly to make sure you're up.
You mustn't miss that match😅.
Dave
Let's see how it goes.
Goodnight b
I love you🔐💖
Jasmine
I love you too babe❤
Seen 1:45am.
"God please wake me up by 5 so I can wake Dave up pleasee.
I know you always answer my prayers so please wake me up by 5 today
Please take away my over sleeping habit just for today Amen."
{All the things we do for love😅💔}
The next morning, Jasmine felt the urge to urinate so bad while she was asleep and so she came down from her bed and went to the toilet to empty her bladder.
When she was done, she went back to her room, picked up her phone and checked the time.
It was exactly 5:02am.
''Oh my God, so this is how God works?''
She said to herself excitedly and immediately went online on WhatsApp to text him but he wasn't online
Jasmine
Babyyyy I told you I'd be here by 5💃💃☺
She waited for some minutes but no response so she called him.
He picked up after the 5th ring and he sounded sleepy.
"Hello. . ."
He said.
"Guess who woke up by 5am for you she said excitedly."
"Oh my God Jasmine I love you I love you I love you!"
"Don't tell me you were still sleeping"
"I swear I was oh my God I love you babe."
"I love you tooo
Just come online already.
And go and start taking your bath."
"Okay ma'am."
He said and he hung up.
He came online immediately and he couldn't stop telling Jasmine about how much he loved her.
Jasmine
I wish you luck baby
I want you to always remember that I'm rooting for you❤
Make sure you don't get distracted on the field and make sure you score for me✨💛
Even if you don't score, I'll still love you the same but you know your team needs it so try your best✨
My baller🔐💜
I will mama😎
I have to go now
I love you
Bye💛
Jasmine
I love you too baby boy
Bye❤
{End of flashback}
Good old days, she thought to herself.
******