Nagising ako bigla dahil sa panaginip ko. Napakagat ako sa ibabang labi at naihilamos ang kamay sa mukha.
Jusko, ngayon lang ulit ako nanaginip ng ganoon kainit. It's so vivid kaya para akong sira na nahihiya na ewan. I dreamed about North and we're...doing it.
"Holy shit," Naiungol ko na lang.
Nakakaasar ka minsan, self. Para kang kulang sa aruga.
Nanigas ako nang mapagtanto kong may katabi ako. No'n ko lang naramdaman yung hininga nitong kasama ko sa bandang lalamunan ko pati ang brasong nasa baywang ko. Kahit ang mga binti nito ay kulang na lang pumulupot sa akin sa pagkakayapos. Si Jean ba 'to? Si Yuka?
Parang...hindi?
Halos panawan ako ng ulirat dahil nang ibaba ko ang kumot ay mukha ni North ang bumungad sa akin. Her eyes was closed, squeezing herself closer to me.
Ilang beses akong kumurap. "Nananaginip pa yata ako."
I felt my heart racing nang gumalaw ang balikat nito, hanggang sa tuluyang natawa. "You're not dreaming, silly."
Her brown eyes bore into me, as if trying to read me. There's an amused expression pasted on her face, like she's seeing me for the first time and she's curious to check.
Pasimple kong kinurot ang sarili ko pero nakaramdam ako ng sakit. And I can feel the coldness of the room. No'n ko napansin na nakahawi na yung kurtina sa glass window ng kwarto.
"Anong...oras na?" I asked.
"It's barely 9am." she answered short.
Kinusot ko ang mata dahil baka may muta ako o ano, nakakahiya naman dito sa girlfriend ko na ang ganda-ganda ng ayos.
She's wearing a high waisted jeans and a checkered polo which was unbuttoned all the way through, showing her white top underneath. She's so pretty. Samantalang ako bagong gising na nga, hindi ko pa sure kung mukha na ba akong tao.
"I was here since 7:30, went to your room and found you sleeping. Naki-nap lang ako because you look soft and comfy." Halos mag-init ang buong mukha ko sa sinabi niya. "Nagising lang ako when you stirred a bit. How's your sleep?"
"O-okay lang." No'n ko naalala yung dahilan sa biglaang pagkagising. Napaiwas ako ng tingin. I propped myself up para makabangon na sana but North held me without warning and now I found myself hovering above her.
"You're beet red."
Wala akong mabigay na excuse. Una, siya kasi ito. Lagi naman akong namumula dahil sa kanya. We're so close, I can't help but melt in front of her. She's eyeing me like she's not seeing anything else.
Hindi ako makapagsalita nang basta na lang itong yumapos kaya halos madaganan ko siya. Naramdaman ko rin naman na parang na-relax ako. I felt her playing with my hair, the other hand on my middle back, caressing me.
"Hindi ka ba nabibigatan?" ang natanong ko na lang.
"You're light as a feather."
"Ows?" I pursed my lips. Tina-try ko kasing huwag ibigay yung bigat ko ng tuluyan sa kanya. Natawa siya at basta na lang ako kinagat sa balikat ng may kadiinan. "Aray naman."
"Not sorry," pang-aasar nitong sagot. "I quite like biting you."
Maaga yata akong papanaw sa sinasabi ni North. I can feel my stomach churning, kinikilig ako na ewan. Who would know that she can be this teasing? Hindi kinakaya ng energy ko.
Bumangon ako nang bahagya para tingnan siya. Hindi mapalis ang ngiti sa labi ni North, she really looks happy to be here. "Kumain ka na ba? Sina Jean?"
"They're probably in the dining area. If you're hungry, sasabayan na lang din kita kumain."
I gave her lips a quick kiss. I just feel like doing it. "Ba't ang ganda mo?"
Hindi kaagad siya nakapagsalita. Ang tamis ng naging ngiti niya kahit halata na rin ang biglang pamumula ng mga pisngi. "Are you teasing me?"
Namilog ang mata ko. "H-hindi! Nagtanong lang ako!"
"Yuka's suggestion is starting to become...very tempting." she whispered enough for me to hear.
"Huh?" Ano raw? Bakit nasama sa usapan si Yuka?
She chuckled while fixing my mess of a hair. Nahiya naman tuloy ako. Baka mamaya mukha pala talaga akong sabog tingnan tapos lakas ng loob kong huwag mag-ayos kaagad.
Babangon na sana ako pero pinigilan niya ako. Tinitigan ko siya. She really looks pretty kahit saang angle tingnan. Medyo magulo na rin ang ayos ng buhok at damit nito dahil sa pagkakahiga, but she didn't look like a mess. She's very alluring right now.
It's something I've dreamed of ever since ─ to wake up and see her first thing in the morning.
"Do you want to kiss?" she asked.
It was a question, but the tone felt like she was requiring me to say yes. The expression said it all, or how the tip of her fingers slid softly to my jaw, down to my neck, collarbone, how it ended up playing with the strap of my top ─ while still maintaining her eyes on me.
It was intimate, sweet, and inviting.
I leaned my face closer to kiss her temple, her eyelids, her nose, and both of her cheeks. Marahan na ipinikit nito ang mga mata nang tuluyan ko siyang mahalikan sa labi niya.
It was a soft peck at first, like a curious kisser trying to explore timidly, and North was kind enough to let me.
She followed when I started kissing her thoroughly ─ my teeth grazing on her lower lip, giving it a bite, and a few seconds suckle before exploring her mouth.
I was holding the side of her neck, my thumb softly touching her earlobe, my other hand reaching North's own hand, keeping it still beside her head.
I earned a soft moan from her when I deepened the kiss, my tongue freely conquering her own, sucking it, taking in my fill and sharing with her the same intensity of what I was feeling.
She's giving me too much of a leeway and I can't help but use it. I want North to feel loved.
Our lips were still so close when we parted. Parehas kaming malalim kung huminga. I feel like I didn't breathe at all while we were kissing.
Muli ko siyang hinalikan at hindi ako nakaramdam ng pagtanggi. The kiss was light, and it's almost as if I was just teasing her.
I once again kissed her cheek, gulping my hesitation and boldly travelled my lips on the base of her ear. Narinig ko ang mahinang pagsinghap ni North nang laruin ko ang tainga niya. Humigpit din nang bahagya ang pagkakahawak niya sa batok ko.
No'n ko naalala yung ginawa niya ring paghalik sa tainga ko before. I vividly remembered the feeling, nakakatindig ng balahibo.
"Paris," Halos bulong na sambit niya. North was recoiling a bit whenever I was licking the inner part of her ear, realizing she was sensitive there "Wait..."
It almost sounded like a moan.
I stopped teasing her, giving her neck a few kisses bago ko siya harapin. Tainga niya ang pinaka-namumula sa lahat. Huminga siya ng malalim na para bang kino-compose ang sarili niya.
Binitawan ko na ang pagkakahawak sa wrist niya. Umiwas siya saglit ng tingin.
Ganoon na lang ang gulat ko nang itulak niya ako pahiga at walang anu-ano'y muling kinagat sa balikat. Napangiwi ako. Mas madiin iyon kaysa sa kanina. "Aray ko!"
She sat on my stomach. Tinaasan niya ako ng kilay habang napapailing, mukhang nakabawi na. "For someone as timid as you, you're so good at this."
Doon naman ako nakaramdam ng pag-iinit lalo ng mukha. "S-sorry?"
She chuckled. She kissed my cheek bago ako hinila rin para makabangon kami parehas. Inayos niya ang damit na nagusot pati na rin ang buhok niya. She once again fixed my hair, too and I can't help but smile.
"I'm kidding, Gail." She kissed my lips briefly. "I love what you did, don't be shy about it."
Nakahinga ako ng maluwag. Akala ko naman ay sumobra ako. Pero nagtataka talaga ako kung bakit siya natatawa kaya hindi ko maiwasan mapakunot ang noo.
Nang makatayo kami ay basta na lang niya akong niyakap, para pang may halong panggigigil iyon dahil sa higpit. "Yuka suggested that it's okay for us to get intimate here. It wasn't in my plan but you just kinda look... cute?"
Parang hindi ko yata alam kung anong mukha ang ihaharap ko sa narinig. Gusto ko sakalin saglit si Yuka, wala na talagang matinong lumalabas sa bibig no'n.
"Ouch!" Napabitaw siya nang kagatin ko rin siya sa balikat niya. Imbes na mainis ay natawa na lang ito. "Tara na."
Tumango ako. Pagtapos kong maghilamos at mag-sipilyo ─ nakakahiyang walang toothbrush akong nakipaghalikan ─ ay lumabas na kami ng kwarto ni North.
Naabutan namin yung dalawa sa living room, may mga nakalagay pang pagkain sa center table, bukas din ang tv at ang mga loko ay nanonood ng Disney movie.
They both looked at us and their grin and teasing stares weren't of help. Parang gusto ko na lang lamunin ng lupa.
"Nadiligan yarn?"
Pinanlisikan ko si Yuka ng tingin sa narinig. Parang siya pala muna ang gusto kong ipalamon sa lupa.
"Ang kalat talaga!" Palatak ni Jean bago walang prenong binatukan ang kaibigan. "Gail, patago ng bite mark sa balikat, ah? Huwag ka mang-inggit, nananabunot ako ng maganda."
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