Warnings: Mature Language, Mentions of Pregnancy/ Abortion, Smoking, Scheming, Mentions of Cheating and Affairs, Betrayal, Slurs such as "Slut" and "Whore".
Unedited chapter but I'm editing it soon!
❝𝐒𝐨 𝐛𝐫𝐚𝐯𝐨, 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐰𝐢𝐧, 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐡𝐚𝐭𝐞𝐬 𝐀𝐥𝐞𝐱𝐚𝐧𝐝𝐫𝐚 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐬𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐫..❞
"𝐘𝐨𝐮 𝐧𝐞𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝐨 𝐬𝐭𝐨𝐩 lying A." Blair told me as I applied my mascara to my eyelashes hoping I could look perfect for Nate today at Constance, well when I see him. "I'm not lying B, you know you're just nervous." I replied blinking between words, I was sick of being questioned. "I am not nervous." She scoffed as I placed my mascara down and swivelled on my chair. "Please, you're terrified over your date with Logan- but I assure you it'll be fine, now let's go before we're later than fashionably late." I smiled kissing my sister on the cheek as she sighed in defeat- knowing I was right- before we walked towards the car.
"Hey what day is it today?" I asked my sister. "Sixteenth why? Are you tracking your period or something?" Blair joked. "Something like that." I muttered seeing Gossip Girl say S was spotted with a pregnancy test. "Oh my god... Dan doesn't seem that much of a donut." B frowned. "Yeah that's not for S..." I sighed as Blair looked at me.
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"𝐇𝐢!" 𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐜𝐡𝐢𝐫𝐩𝐲 𝐯𝐨𝐢𝐜𝐞 of little J sounded as she sat next to my twin sister. "Isabel sweetie, can you go get me a coffee, decaf." I bossed as she smiled, "Course A." and walked off. "Jenny Hi." Penelope spoke. "You're late." Blair commented as I tutted. "Yeah, I know. I had to drop some books of at the library sorry." She apologised. "Would you do us a favour?" I asked. "Yeah, anything." Jenny agreed. "So eager." I hummed. "Move down a couple steps." Blair bossed as we both delicately shooed her with our fingers.
With a huff she obeyed, like all the little mice. "You know, this hazing thing is getting a little old. Don't you think A and B?" Little Humphrey asked. "First of all, we say when the hazing stops." Blair scowled. "And for future reference, only our friends call us A and B, which you are not." I hissed as Isabel handed me my drink and I nodded sipping my coffee.
"You know, I'm actually gonna go-I have a lot of stuff to do before class." Jenny lied walking off. "Jenny!" Penelope called out. "Please, she'll be back." Blair scoffed. "Who cares anyway." I replied. "Hey guys." S spoke approaching the group. "Hey..." We all quietly replied with smiles- they still thought she was pregnant, I mean hey she could be? I mean I'm not anyway so it's just... incredibly stupid.
"I'm not pregnant!" Serena informed them. "Cool..." Kati said. "Congrats." Is said. "Celebratory drinks after school?" Hazel wondered. "Yeah, course, hey Alex can I talk to you for a moment?" S asked as I smiled. "Course S." I faked a smile sipping my decaf ones more. "Excuse me, she just loves me so much." I smirked following Serena drink in hand.
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"𝐃𝐢𝐝 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐠𝐞𝐭 𝐦𝐲 texts?" She asked. "Of course I did, but I've been rather..." I trailed off. "So you know I told Dan I am not pregnant." Serena spoke, "Yes and I am so, happy for you, really close call for you and metro boy huh?" I agreed holding her hands. "Are we really going to play this old game A? You're so like B with these things." She wondered, yet knew the answer. "I have no clue what you mean, now how about those celebratory drinks later?" I smirked.
"Whenever something is not part of your ideas and dreams, you pretend like it doesn't even exist. You act like your in some sort of movie world, but then I have to remind you the only one who is in that world is you. You admitted your period is late." Serena rambled on. "Must be the stress of my parents and exams and studying." I listed.
"And you're acting like a total bitch because you're not hormonal?" She questioned. "Darling, I'm always a total bitch. It's about picking your moments." I retorted sipping my coffee and clicking for Penelope to take it away which she did then left us be. "Just take the test, A." S urged. "Stop it, no!" I refused as she wavered the test in front of me. "Just take the test Alexandra, you need to know if you and Chuck are gonna have a baby." Serena told me handing me the test and walking away, leaving me speechless.
"Or maybe it's an Archibald baby, she's right A, you need to know." Blair spoke kissing my cheek and walking off with her minions.
𝙁𝙤𝙧 𝙖 𝙨𝙘𝙖𝙣𝙙𝙖𝙡 𝙩𝙤 𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙡𝙡𝙮 𝙗𝙡𝙤𝙬 𝙪𝙥, 𝙖𝙡𝙡 𝙞𝙩 𝙩𝙖𝙠𝙚𝙨 𝙞𝙨 𝙖𝙣 𝙪𝙣𝙚𝙭𝙥𝙚𝙘𝙩𝙚𝙙 𝙩𝙪𝙧𝙣, 𝙧𝙞𝙜𝙝𝙩 𝘼?
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"𝐍𝐚𝐭𝐞𝐲 𝐈'𝐯𝐞 𝐦𝐢𝐬𝐬𝐞𝐝 𝐲𝐨𝐮..." I told my boyfriend kissing his lips, it was a like they were fighting one another. "I've missed you more Alex, these lips, the way they smile." Nate beamed beginning to kiss me softly and sweetly, "Would you do me a really big favour?" Nate wondered softly as I pressed another kiss on his lips, not realising Chuck was watching. Little did he know Blair had sorted the tape stuff out with Vanessa and I gave her bragging rights- what are sisters for?
"What is it sweetie?" I wondered with a small smile. "I need you to come with me to visit my dad in rehab. Please?" He pleaded. "Really?" I asked shocked, Nate's never asked me for anything before. "Yeah it just, it's awkward when I have to go alone now, and I dunno what to say anymore. He loves you, you always know how to make him laugh." Nate explained.
"Nate Archibald, you've never asked me for anything and now you are officially leaning on me. This time- we're going to be so much better." I smiled kissing Nate once more. "We already are." Nate smiled making our kiss soon turned into a make-out yet my eyes glanced up to the lurking eyes of Chuck Bass. "You have no idea what I can do..." He mouthed as Anthony looked at him with a furrow of the brows.
"Hello Lovebirds!" Tony interrupted as I rolled my eyes. "Idiot." I huffed.
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𝐈 𝐰𝐚𝐬 𝐥𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐠𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐨𝐧 my bed attempting to get some studying in when S came through, "Hey A." She spoke. "What are you doing here? If you're looking for Blair she's at a study session with Tony and the minions." I replied continuing my writing. "I was in the neighbourhood." She responded as I finally looked up at her. "Can we talk later? Despite your best efforts to ruin my day I'm actually having a decent one. Guess who asked me to visit the captain with him?" I wondered with a smile.
"I dunno Nate?" Serena sighed with her face screaming unimpressed. "Look, I understand you're reluctant to burst your bubble, but I am not giving up." Serena told me, "Oh I'm sorry I wasn't on the pill from the age of 15." I sassed.
"Okay, I am giving up. But before you start planning your perfect night with Nate, don't you think you should take the..." She trailed off yet I cut her off. "I am not pregnant Serena, I will never ever be pregnant until I'm getting my job writing for GQ or W." I snapped at my best friend who looked at me in defeat.
"I guess you've made your choice... At least I'm not living in regret!" She hissed walking off as I sighed glancing at the box of the test under my bed and grabbed my blackberry texted Chuck:
Stop lurking round like a jealous bf. I dnt want u, so kindly fuck off!-A
Aww don't dirty talk now A...-C
I sighed, maybe S is right..
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Chuck's POV
𝐀 𝐥𝐨𝐮𝐝 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐜𝐤 𝐚𝐭 my door caught my attention, I put my phone down with a slight smirk and answered the door. Serena. "Hi, Chuck." She sighed whilst I smirked. "Please, call me brother." I quipped. "I need to talk to you." She replied ignoring my comment. "About getting knocked up? I must say I am a little disappointed that you weren't more careful." I mocked allowing her to step inside my suite and closed the door behind us.
"Chuck, I really need to trust you. I'm hoping that deep down inside, you're actually a decent person and you won't make me regret this." Serena seriously spoke as I made myself a drink and concluded what she meant. "You're here for Alex, aren't you? Look, I am not going to tell Nate about us. I tortured her, got bored then moved on." I informed her, I had gotten bored of the torture because I couldn't deny that she was still in my thoughts.
"There's no moving on yet. The pregnancy test wasn't for me, it was for Alex." She confessed. "What?" I wondered in bewilderment. "She refuses to take it, so given if she is pregnant you're the..." S beat around the bush. "No, we used a condom." I refused. "Well, it obviously broke.." Serena replied.
"What is obvious is that your best friend and her sister clearly kept you in the dark." I commented, partly shocked that Alexandra never told Serena. "What are you talking about?" The blonde wondered. "Like I said, I handle my business, Nate clearly doesn't. They slept together right after we did, she's such a whore. It's him you need to ask for help." I sternly told her.
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Alex's POV
𝐈 𝐝𝐢𝐝𝐧'𝐭 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲 𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐭 to face anyone yet Blair and I were picking at our breakfasts and heard the voice of Serena. "Morning Miss Serena." Dorota spoke placing our drinks before us. "Anyone notice the weather today?" Serena asked. "What?" Blair and I frowned speaking in unison. "Please, do not be a bitch right now S, I'm being a bitch for us both. Stupid fucking Tony ignores my calls again- I'm not a yoyo!" Blair huffed.
"Maybe that's how Logan feels." Serena commented as I rolled my eyes. "Take a look outside, A. My first response would be that the sky is clear blue easy." She commented once more with gritted teeth. "How clever of you." I scowled. "Dorota, you may be excused now." Blair ordered as our maid scampered away.
"What's with the pregnancy implications?" I frowned. "I can't believe you didn't tell me about you and Nate, and B that you had a threeso-" Serena snapped. "What???" I gasped smirking. "Wait, did he tell you that?" I wondered. "No, Chuck told me about everything you've both done when I went to see him because I though he could talk some sense into Alex." She explained.
"You had zero right to do that!" I snapped. "I was trying to help you A. I took a public bullet for you, let another rumour about me run rampant." S argued. "The whole school heard- even Dan." She continued. "What a shame the most unpopular guy in the universe heard!" Blair mocked.
"What's going on here?" Mom asked. "Ask Blair or Alex, their versions of the story are always betters, especially yours Alex." Serena sassed walking off. "Are you both okay?" She asked. "Never been better mom, I have to go get ready." Blair huffed walking off. "I'm fine mother." I replied.
"Well Serena has, Alexandra, what's wrong?" Eleanor asked. "I am not sure, I cannot deal with her mood swings nor am I responsible." I snapped. "Were you arguing about the possibility of both of your conditions coming back?" She asked. "No, and it hasn't." I replied. "I heard you the other day, with the water running, the stash is still under your bed... Alexandra." My mother beat around the bush.
"I'm just stressed! And not all that is even mine! And with you and Serena down my throat, I can hardly think straight, let alone keep my food down." I snarked at my mother. "Maybe you and Blair both need a break, visit your father and Roman. Lyon is beautiful this time of year." Mom stated, "This summer is better." I spoke.
"Summer sounds great, now finish your breakfast. I need to talk to Blair before she goes to speak to whoever." She sighed walking off and I just ate a few grapes.
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𝐁 𝐡𝐚𝐝 𝐜𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐞𝐝 𝐒𝐞𝐫𝐞𝐧𝐚 and they'd made up, they were out shopping and my mother was busy with her line so I decided to take the test- finally. The timer on my phone finally rang and I sighed, "I command myself to not be pregnant." I looked down at the test and immediately rang Blair.
"Hey B, put me on speaker." I told her as she agreed. "Hey S, it's A. Two things, first off... Sorry about Dan, about the GG Blast and not telling you about Nate. It's because you were so hard on me about Chuck that I didn't wanna be judged for sleeping with both." I apologised. "Okay, apology accepted." She agreed. "Really? I would've made her work harder." Blair smirked.
"Hey!" I huffed. "Okay, second thing..." I trailed off. "That's already like three things." Serena smiled. "I'm not pregnant!" I smirked as I heard loud cheers off my sister and best friend, we all squealed. "Oh I'm so happy." S smiled. "I'd have no idea what to wear over the paternity hearing." Blair smiled. "Clean Slate?" I offered. "Clean slate." The pair agreed. "See you at school." S said. "See you soon, love you Alex!" Blair giggled. "Love you too..." I faked a smile hanging up and looking at the test.
2 weeks pregnant
Two weeks exactly...That means it may be Chuck's...
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𝐈 𝐬𝐭𝐫𝐨𝐥𝐥𝐞𝐝 𝐚𝐥𝐨𝐧𝐠, 𝐟𝐚𝐮𝐱𝐢𝐧𝐠 happiness on the way to school to see Chuck smoking the stub it out. "Oh, don't stop on my account." I stated as he followed me, "Oh, I have to, second hand smoke is bad for the uh..." He trailed off grabbing my arm. "I'm not pregnant, so goodbye mistake so far in my past I regret to remember." I told him. "You cannot be serious." Chuck retorted.
"You should not be touching me." I glowered freeing my arm. "Look if you wanted to tell Nate you would've done so in Monaco, but we both know you don't want him to hate you, and you know he would. Game over." I explained. "The game's not over until I say it is." He seethed. "Then have fun playing with yourself.." I sassed walking off yet I'd soon regret my words...
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Chuck's POV
𝐀𝐟𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐈 𝐬𝐞𝐧𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐞 blast in I saw Alex getting banished by the girls, good. "Whoa! Hey Man!" I spoke shocked as Nate threw me onto the car. "Did you sleep with her? Huh?" He growled. "You son of a bitch! I ought to kill you!" Nate sneered clutching at my neck. "Can we talk about this without you hands around my neck?" I questioned. "What'd you do? Did you get what you wanted huh? You fuck her hard again and use her like all your other girls!" Nate shouted releasing my neck.
"Yes Nathaniel! I took what Alex kept begging from you and you kept throwing back." I snarled in retort, he doesn't get to have an issue, he shouldn't be the one with the fucking problem he got her. "What so you screwing Alex for sport is my fault?" He scoffed. "It wasn't for sport, it wasn't like that... She needed someone, she still does and I was there, whilst you were sniffing around Serena like some hound." I spat. "So what, you cared about her huh?" Nate asked in disbelief.
"You guys were broken up." I attempted to defend, measly one at that, I know when I am a bad Bass after all. "What, for how long? A week? A hour?" He questioned. "Look, I'm sorry all right? I know how long you and I have been best friends for okay?" I shouted walking up to him as he paced like a madman. "That's why you were acting so shady on her birthday, because you were screwing her. Chuck it's not okay! From now on you stay away from me." Nate sneered letting go of me once more and going to walk away.
"Nate, please..." I pleaded as he spun around. "Did you hear what I said? You stay the hell away from me Chuck!" Nate roared as I looked to see Alexandra stood there. "Maybe's a bad time to say hi..." She commented looking at us both. It's like she was deciding on who to comfort, who to go to.
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Alex's POV
"𝐍𝐚𝐭𝐞, 𝐍𝐚𝐭𝐞... 𝐂𝐨𝐦𝐞 𝐨𝐧, it's always you. It's you Nate. He is poison! Chuck is poison, no one loves Chuck, he's always alone and it's what he deserves!" I pleaded with him as Anthony stepped in.
"After what I just witnessed Alex, I think it's best you fuck off before Nate pops him like a zit. No one wants your crocodile tears, because let's face it... You're a filthy little slut, a filthy slut who got between two best friends. You don't deserve love, you don't deserve jack shit. So scurry your sweet American ass along darling." Tony snarled as I looked at Nate, "Nate please..." I whispered out. "He's right...Let's go Tony." Nate gravelly spoke walking off with his best friend. "Shows over!" Chuck yelled as I went to the place I knew I could get through to Nate... His house.
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"𝐖𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐝𝐨𝐢𝐧𝐠 here?" He glared, "You're mom let me in." I answered. "I didn't ask how you got in, I asked why you came." Nate stated. "To talk, properly, about us." I spoke with saddened eyes. "There is no us, Alex." He replied. "Yes... Yes there is. This is our chance to truly start over. Nate there's something-" I went to say. "You know, this entire time, I felt so bad for everything I'd done and when you said the past was in the past, I didn't know you meant your past." Nate spoke angrily.
"You broke my heart! I made a decision I was in no condition to make. Both of the times." I admitted- kinda. "You're clear headed now?" He asked as I nodded. "Then you'll understand when I say I want nothing else to do with you. You and Chuck deserve one another." Nate sneered. "Chuck would say anything- he's a liar." I stated looking at my phone to see texts and missed calls from S and B. "Jenny wouldn't." He replied.
"Jenny?" I asked. "Don't go blaming any of this on her Alex. I would've found out eventually, now I said I'm done." He sternly stated. "He fucks better than you anyway." I retorted scowling. "I'm glad he does because you two will be stuck together." He spat as I went to walk off and turned to face him. "Oh seen as your sick of secrets, I'm pregnant by the way... It's Chuck's if I do the math correctly. I just wanted to let you know." I sadly spoke walking off.
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𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐧𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭 𝐡𝐚𝐝 𝐡𝐢𝐭,after ice cream, hugs, binging TVDs and season one of Sons Of Anarchy with Serena and Blair I decided to find Chuck, hoping he could give me some sort of chance. Chuck was sat drinking alone as usual, "Would you like one?" The bartender offered as I refused politely. I looked up to the Bass boy and we held a gaze for moment, silence surrounding us both. "I uh came to say congratulations, you ruined my relationship with Nate, all my friends and even little Jenny thinks she's better than me. So bravo, you win, everyone hates Alexandra and her sister." I stated with a sigh.
"Now I have no one to turn to but you, sometimes there's only so many things you can admit to your sister and somethings too hard to tell your best friend." I explained. "Actually... You don't even have me." Chuck harshly stated. "Enough of this.." I sadly spoke.
"I'll try be more succinct. You held a certain fascination, when you were beautiful, you were delicate and untouched by everyone except me. But now your like one of the Arabians my father used to own- rode hard and put away wet. I don't want you anymore and I'm surprised anyone ever would." Chuck snarled as I met his gaze. "P-Please I really need you..." I pleaded. "Chuck I lied I'm pre-" I tried to say.
"You're pregnant? Why would I believe you with anything you say?" He scoffed. "But... I like you and I can't explain it, I thought you liked me to and you'd I dunno help me figure it out." I spoke to him. "Like you? Alexandra Cordelia Waldorf, the thought of you alone repulses me, if you carried an offspring that'd repulse me even more." Chuck seethed as I blinked back shocked and simply walked away tearfully.
𝙎𝙤𝙢𝙚𝙩𝙞𝙢𝙚𝙨 𝙩𝙝𝙤𝙨𝙚 𝙢𝙤𝙢𝙚𝙣𝙩𝙨 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙨𝙚𝙚𝙢𝙚𝙙 𝙨𝙬𝙚𝙚𝙩 𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙣 𝙩𝙪𝙧𝙣 𝙨𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙢𝙖𝙠𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙡𝙞𝙨𝙚 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙣𝙤𝙩 𝙖𝙡𝙡 𝙚𝙮𝙚𝙘𝙖𝙣𝙙𝙮 𝙞𝙨 𝙖𝙨 𝙨𝙪𝙜𝙖𝙧𝙮 𝙖𝙨 𝙬𝙚 𝙬𝙖𝙣𝙩...
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𝐈 𝐥𝐨𝐨𝐤𝐞𝐝 𝐨𝐧 𝐆𝐨𝐬𝐬𝐢𝐩 Girl spotted to see Blair with Nate probably comforting him, Serena with Dan, Anthony with Chuck talking some sense into him and here I was, alone. I dialled Chuck and left a voicemail, "Hey, it's Alex, the horse you called rode out. I just wanted to let you know I'm doing you a massive favour and getting rid of the thing inside of me, seen as both it's possible daddy's despise the crap out of me. I did really like you no matter how much I was with Nate there was a part of me that craved our chemistry but... No. You made your choice to tell him. You set yourself up for failure so fuck you." I shouted hanging up and entering the clinic.
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𝐈 𝐩𝐥𝐚𝐜𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐩𝐡𝐨𝐧𝐞𝐬 in my ears before lying back, tears captured my eyes as they'd made me listen to the heartbeat before. I was all alone, and it was what would happen now. "Is there not anyone who could be there for you?" She asked me as I looked at the nurse. "Not anymore... I'm alone-" I went to say when I looked up to see someone walk in. "God I got so lost getting here, do you know how many rooms there are?" The familiar voice smiled. "How did you-" I trailed off.
"Your sister told me, and Serena... Come on you thought I'd leave you all alone when you need me most?" He asked as I sniffled holding my hand out as he accepted it. "You're brave yanno, not many women have guts. Now you're gonna just relax okay? Listen to the music of The Virgins and relax." He told me pressing a kiss on my forehead.
"Thank you Carter, who knew you were such a softie?" I thanked him as tears rolled down my eyes. "It's okay sunflower, I'll be here when you wake up." He promised as my eyes began to drift a close. Maybe Carter could be one of the ones to save me from this pit of sadness and worry...
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I'm not crying you are! Genuinely nearly cried writing this chapter- sorry if anyone was affected by the pregnancy and abortion however I did not want to ruin it for those who weren't! I wanted to bring Baizen back because he is honestly underrated! Thanks for reading and also I got my role in my production so updates may le vary!