I woke up by the sunlight hitting my face. I checked the time it was almost 9 am. I got up and did my morning routine. I wore my maroon sweater and comfy sweatpants.
I walked downstairs to find no sing of Chan.
'Is he still sleeping? Yep he's. After last night's talk, he must have slept late. You did good that you came up to me. I am proud of you Chan.' I smiled proudly and went to the kitchen preparing coffee and some toast for me. I placed my breakfast on the table and sat on the chair.
It was silence. Chan's house is really very big but just the two of us live here. I live here temporary though. It's must be scary and very lonely for him. Oh how much I want Chan's life to change. He's punishing himself for all the events when clearing he isn't at fault fully. Of course an addict is out of his mind when he takes drugs.
Thinking about punishment, Chan's hand, his hand is in bad condition. I know its painful but he tries not to show when it stings.
...and that thing crossed my mind. The body thing. I blushed again.
"Gosh Y/n what's wrong with you?? Get yourself together!!" I scolded myself again.
The scoldings weren't helping actually. I was still blushing until my phone rang. I got message from...
Bias 🙈💚
Bias 🙈💚 :
Hey gm
I smiled. I read tons of imagines of Bambam and why does it feels as if I am in some of his fiction?
THE FUCK?
You :
Gm!!
Bias 🙈💚 :
How r u doing?
You :
I am fine?
That was sudden cuz we just met few days ago
Bias 🙈💚 :
Hehe Ik
Just wanted to tell u n Chan that I won't be able to meet you guys often..
You know i have some stuffs to do recently...
You :
Vsfsyajwjwkw just you or got7??
I see we having cb or some content soon😏
Bias 🙈💚 :
😂😂
Btw how r u and Chan?
You :
Me and Chan? u mean how I'm handling him? Oh don't worry he's controllable as of now
Yesterday he craved but he came to me and we handled it
Bias 🙈💚 :
Oh I'm so relieved to hear that!
So proud of Chan and of course you
You :
Hehe thank you and you surely love him
Bias 🙈💚 :
🤢
But yeah I do lol don't tell him
You :
Sure 😏
Bias 🙈💚 :
Btw where's he?
You :
He's still sleeping
Bias 🙈💚 :
Oh I c
Bias 🙈💚 :
Well then I gotta go
Take care!
You :
U too
(seen by Bias 🙈💚)
I placed the phone back on the table. After I finished my food I walked to Chan's room.
"Chan? You're up?" I knocked.
Nothing.
"Will you ever give me response when I knock or do you want me to witness another sce-" I realized what I said.
'Y/n are you crazy??'
I waited for few more minutes and then I lost patience. I opened the door thinking he's sle-
'What is he doing on the floor?'
"Chan?" I approached him. "Argh do you dance in sleep? What a messy sl-"
I froze when I touched him...His hand was cold as ice. He was already awake but he's freezing?
"Chan?!" I panicked once again.
"Y/- Y/n...I-" he was struggling.
"Shh don't say anything. Try to get up okay? Come on I will help you." I said and I helped him get up. With my whole strength I managed to lay him on his bed.
I quickly got off the bed and opened all the curtains and windows of his room so that the sunlight could help him keep his body warm. I covered him in blanket.
"Chan?" I called him while cupping his cheeks. He slowly opened his eyes. I poured some water in the glass which I saw on his night stand. I helped him drink that.
"I- did-didn't d-do an-"
"Ahhh Chan don't say anything."
I knew this is all because of his cravings. Poor guy carved the whole night. This always happens when you crave for drug but if you can't have that, it adversely affects the body.
I held his hand. "Y/n my bo-body is fre-freezing."
"I will be right back ok?"
"N-no g-go away fr-from me..." he let out which made me shock for a moment. "I wi-will hu-hurt y-"
"No, Chan I am not leaving you. You won't hurt me. Just one minute let me get my phone so that I can call the doctor to ask him how to fix this."
I loosen the grip on his hand and ran towards the kitchen counter where my phone was. I dialed uncle Sungho's number. I returned to Chan's room and sat beside him. This time he held my free hand.
"Y/-" I cut Uncle's words off as soon as he picked up the call.
"Uncle its an emergency. Chan's body is freezing!" I was so worried.
"Ohh don't panic Y/n. Here listen to me it's normal okay? He's fine. He have already went through such things. Just try to keep him warm."
"He have went through this?" I frowned.
"Yes he did when we tried his withdrawal processes before so, don't worry. He will be fine."
"Okay thanks now I am hanging up. Bye"
"Bye. Take care."
I disconnected the call.
'It happened before? So that means as Bambam told me when they tried to get rid of Chan's addiction he went through this? Alone? Alone in this house? Freezing till death?' all these thoughts aches my heart.
'Him lying the whole day on the floor hugging his knees, shivering, controlling himself, crying out when it didn't work, thinking that he would hurt someone because of this, begging for that powder and pills, feeling helpless, having no one beside him...Chan went through all these things? Alone?'
"Y/n," He snapped me out of my thoughts. I wiped the unintentional tear fallen on my cheek.
"Ye-yes?"
"Can I- h-hug y-you? It-its really co-"
I didn't let him finish his words. I quickly laid down beside him and pulled him in a hug. He returned it by hugging my waist. At that moment nothing was important to me than keeping him safe. He hated being physical with someone other than Heejin but right now, he know he needed somebody to help himself and that's why none of us hesitated to hug.
My hand continuously stroking his back. He hid his face in the crook of my neck. His breathe hitching now and then, he was sniffing too...he was frail. I kept uttering comforting words so that he could relax and feel safe.
It somehow felt different to hug him. Again fireworks happened in my gut. I've never hugged any other guy before. Taehoon is the only one but him too as friend and it took me a very long time to do so. With Chan, it felt comfortable, it felt safe, it felt not to let go him.
After being in the same position for few minutes, he finally stopped trembling. Of course not fully but the state where it was normal for him. His body relaxed. His breathing was in control. I decided to break the hug and check his temperature. It was better than before.
"Chan?"
"Hmm.."
"Are you okay?"
He shook his head. I felt bad again.
"Don't worry you are fine. Look here." he faced me.
Tears formed in his eyes. I quickly wiped them away with my thumb and creased his cheek. "You are fine. See you are not trembling anymore. Is your body warm now?"
He nodded and smiled sadly.
I smiled too. "Can you sit up now?"
He let go of me and tried to sit up. I helped him.
"Let me get you something warm to eat alright?" I said.
He held my hand. "Y/n...don't leave me..."
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Hyunjin's solo live after so many months 😭😭
He was looking so tiny ^^