❝𝐀 𝐛𝐞𝐚𝐮𝐭𝐢𝐟𝐮𝐥 𝐛𝐨𝐝𝐲 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫𝐬 𝐨𝐟 𝐜𝐨𝐮𝐫𝐬𝐞. 𝐃𝐨𝐧'𝐭 𝐭𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐞 𝐦𝐞 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭.❞
Warnings: E.Ds in a lot of detail, mature language, mentions of sex.
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𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐬𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐝 𝐨𝐟 𝐥𝐚𝐮𝐠𝐡𝐭𝐞𝐫 awoke me from my slumber, it was apparently a sunny day as the sun escaped my blinds. I could hear the loud laughs booming from downstairs, "Mmm Dorota tell them to shut up." I groaned rolling slowly out of my bed. Last night had been a wild night, Chuck and Nate were preparing for the lost weekend and for some completely insane reason I decided to help them out.
I slowly walked to the mirror rubbing my eyes and tying my black slip up over myself and texted Natey.
Enjoy ur lost weekend bby, I love you Xx -A
There was no replied but I brushed it off running the brush through my curled hair, I needed to get thinner, I was sick of being fat. I decided I'd go on a run later, that'll help. I tied the robe loosely around me and walked down the stairs to see my sister, waiting there and seeing Serena and our mother talking. "What's going on?" I whispered to her. "I have no idea." She sighed.
𝙃𝙚𝙮 𝙐𝙥𝙥𝙚𝙧 𝙀𝙖𝙨𝙩 𝙎𝙞𝙙𝙚𝙧𝙨, 𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙧𝙚'𝙨 𝙣𝙤𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙂𝙤𝙨𝙨𝙞𝙥 𝙂𝙞𝙧𝙡 𝙡𝙞𝙠𝙚𝙨 𝙢𝙤𝙧𝙚 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙣 𝙖 𝙨𝙪𝙧𝙥𝙧𝙞𝙨𝙚 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙬𝙚 𝙝𝙚𝙖𝙧 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙒𝙖𝙡𝙙𝙤𝙧𝙛'𝙨 𝙜𝙤𝙩 𝙖 3-2 𝙨𝙥𝙚𝙘𝙞𝙖𝙡. 𝙏𝙝𝙚𝙞𝙧 𝙢𝙤𝙢 𝙀𝙡𝙚𝙖𝙣𝙤𝙧 𝙧𝙚𝙩𝙪𝙧𝙣𝙚𝙙 𝙛𝙧𝙤𝙢 𝙋𝙖𝙧𝙞𝙨, 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙎𝙚𝙧𝙚𝙣𝙖 𝙑𝙖𝙣 𝘿𝙚𝙧 𝙒𝙤𝙤𝙙𝙨𝙚𝙣, 𝙗𝙧𝙪𝙣𝙘𝙝 𝙗𝙪𝙙𝙙𝙞𝙚𝙨...
"Hey! You're both up!" Serena smiled as Blair and I walked over to her, "Did we have plans?" Blair asked. "Darling, it's impolite to interrupt." Our mother lectured blowing us both a kiss. "I was just telling Serena that bendel's is interested in carrying my line," She informed us as both of us beamed. "Really? Oh that is fantastic! Why didn't you tell us?" I asked my mother.
"I came back from Paris early to work on my look book. And if they like what they see, it could be the beginning of an entire lifestyle collection." She explained as Blair faked a smile and ate a little of her pastry, "Because more people should be like you mother."
"Before you tuck into that, why not try the low fat yogurt, it may be more appealing. And Alexandra eat some more, you look like a pile of bones." Our mother harshly told us. "It's Alex and I don't care for stuffing my face to suit others." I retorted to her. "It's all about image dear, please just try my advice." She spoke. "Fine." I said with gritted teach before attacking a croissant.
"I lost two pounds while you were away." Blair told our mother. "That's great darling." She replied. "I lost one too isn't that great?" I smiled. "Well of course but don't look like a skeleton from the horror movies." Mother warned as I sighed. "Wow these are beautiful Mrs Waldorf." Serena gushed looking at our mom's collection.
"Well they will be if they're not all squished from travelling." She spoke as I ate another croissant, "You may wanna slow down." Blair warned. "Enjoy your lowfat yogurt." I told her. "Serena you have to come back later when everything is unpacked. I'd love to hear your thoughts. You do have such great personal style." My mom complimented.
"You know mother some people call me a fashionista at Constance." I piped up between chewing. "I don't think we'll be able to Alex, Blair and I have plans today." S told our mom. "Yes yes and that's brilliant darling." Mom told me hardly even listening, I rolled my eyes in response. "We do?" Blair asked Serena.
𝙎𝙚𝙧𝙚𝙣𝙖, 𝘽𝙡𝙖𝙞𝙧 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝘼𝙡𝙚𝙭 𝙢𝙞𝙜𝙝𝙩 𝙝𝙖𝙫𝙚 𝙥𝙡𝙖𝙣𝙨 𝙛𝙤𝙧 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙙𝙖𝙮, 𝙗𝙪𝙩 𝙉𝙖𝙩𝙚 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝘾𝙝𝙪𝙘𝙠 𝙖𝙧𝙚 𝙛𝙪𝙡𝙡𝙮 𝙗𝙤𝙤𝙠𝙚𝙙 𝙛𝙤𝙧 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙬𝙚𝙚𝙠𝙚𝙣𝙙... 𝙄𝙛 𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙮 𝙨𝙪𝙧𝙫𝙞𝙫𝙚 𝙞𝙩.
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𝐓𝐰𝐨 𝐦𝐞𝐧 𝐰𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐞𝐲𝐞𝐢𝐧𝐠 up Serena, Blair and I, "Oh God. I forgot what it was like being with the two of you together." Blair stated at the three of us walked along. "No, they were looking at the three of us!" Serena replied smiling. "Don't insult us." I told her. "It's been like this all morning." Blair stated. "Starting with your lovely visit with our mother, we weren't even told she was coming home." I chimed in as we walked along the streets on Manhattan.
"Well she was busy, she was rushing around to get everything ready because she wanted to see you both." Serena said to try assure us both. "Please, she didn't wake me up." My sister retorted, "Well you know how Eleanor feels about beauty rest." S excused. "She likes you more than us." I told her. "She does not, you're both her daughters. She doesn't like anyone more than either of you! She just doesn't know how to show it sometimes." Serena spoke.
"Alright, I'm going inside both of you wait for me." Blair said walking inside the restaurant next to us. "I'm gonna go to the bathroom too." I smiled walking off.
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𝐈 𝐤𝐧𝐞𝐥𝐭 𝐝𝐨𝐰𝐧 𝐬𝐨 my face was hovering over the toilet, I heard the taps running so I presumed Blair was washing her hands. I brushed it off shoving two fingers down the back of my throat making myself gag.
"you look like a pile of bones."
"I know you've not been eating, maybe I can eat you."
I let the tears run down my eyes as I threw up the food I'd eaten at breakfast, I got help before but it never really stuck, everything went downhill after Serena and my dad left...
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"𝐖𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐝𝐨𝐢𝐧𝐠 here?" Blair asked Dan as I swallowed a mint, "Read my mind sister." I smiled. "Why does it smell of Pork and Cheese?" I grimaced. "Okay, well when you're done with your charity work, why don't you come and find us?" Blair asked Serena. "We'll be at Tory Burch looking at ponchos." I told her as we both smirked and walked along.
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𝐒𝐞𝐫𝐞𝐧𝐚, 𝐁𝐥𝐚𝐢𝐫 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐈 were looking through my mothers designers, "Mom I must say these are amazing." I complimented. "Thank you dear." She smiled as we eavesdropped her conversation about the model. "Well who better to model than my daughters?" My mom asked. "But we only wanted one model." The woman replied. "It will have a more sentimental feel if both my daughters are used in the photos." She spoke. "I agreed." The woman agreed.
"They'd love to!" Serena smiled. "I would?" Blair asked. "I would." I smiled agreeing with Serena. "Eleanor?" The agent asked. "Yes." My mother replied as the three of us squealed, "It's perfect. Eleanor Waldorf meet the new faces of Waldorf Designs." Laurel smiled as did the three of us who were spinning one another around.
𝙄𝙨 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙖 𝙨𝙢𝙞𝙡𝙚 𝙤𝙣 𝘽 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝘼'𝙨 𝙡𝙞𝙥𝙨? 𝙏𝙝𝙚 𝙨𝙥𝙤𝙩𝙡𝙞𝙜𝙝𝙩'𝙨 𝙤𝙣 𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙢 𝙛𝙤𝙧 𝙤𝙣𝙘𝙚 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙎 𝙖𝙘𝙩𝙪𝙖𝙡𝙡𝙮 𝙝𝙚𝙡𝙥𝙚𝙙 𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙢 𝙜𝙚𝙩 𝙞𝙩. 𝙄 𝙜𝙪𝙚𝙨𝙨 𝙢𝙞𝙧𝙖𝙘𝙡𝙚𝙨 𝙘𝙖𝙣 𝙝𝙖𝙥𝙥𝙚𝙣...
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𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐧𝐞𝐱𝐭 𝐦𝐨𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐒𝐞𝐫𝐞𝐧𝐚, Blair, Kati, Iz and I were lounging in the living room flickering through magazines and viewing clothes. "It's gonna be so hot, the clothes are gorgeous." Serena smiled as Blair replied, "They're alright." "They're pretty hot to be fair, I fucking love clothes." I beamed. "Shut up they're amazing." S replied to my sister as I flickered through Vogue. "I'm just doing my mom a favor." B brushed it off. "Same you know, I like fashion but this is strictly a favor." I chimed in.
"The hair and makeup test is tonight." Blair beamed as I squealed with excitement. "I think this is my best pose." Kati posed in front of the mirror as I rolled my eyes. "That's because you can't see what you look like, you should just be a hand model. The way is this." Isabel sassed. "No no no!" I warned them hopping off the bed. "You gotta put the hand on the hip and pop, please I modeled for fucking G.A.P with Serena once." I told them. "Yes! You gotta pop!" Serena giggled as we all copied each others pose.
Suddenly my phone buzzed, "I'll be back in five." I told the girls. "Dorota bring us all iced teas!" I shouted before going towards my room so no one heard my call.
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"𝐖𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐝𝐨 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐭?" I asked Chuck. "Just wanting to check on you seen as I'm away you can still live on the thoughts of being alone." He softly stated, it was clearly mockery but why would he ask.. "I'm not alone, I'm modelling." I told him. "Sexy underwear? Do show me a picture." Chuck flirted. "Gross! Go to Bendel's if you're that curious." I smiled. "Nothing I've never seen before Kitten." He hummed. "Would you want to see it again?" I asked him looking in the mirror at myself.
"A beautiful body like yours of course. Don't tease me like that." He gravelly spoke down the phone making my heart flutter. "What would you do to me?" I wondered as Chuck chuckled. "Don't do this to me princess, Nate and Tony are here we can't have everyone hearing." He smirked. "You're off to play basketball right?" I wondered. "Yes." He answered. "Alexandra! We need you!" My mother shouted.
"Gossip Girl said Carter's back, be careful." I told Chuck. "I always am." Chuck smirked before saying, "Back to what I'd do to you... I'd take off your clothes, I'd brush my fingers against you waiting for you to beg me for it then I'd fuck you so hard you couldn't walk." He seductively spoke. I took a deep breath hearing his words, "You're right, I am insecure." I told him.
"Why's that?" He asked me, "Nobody wants me, Nate hardly looks at me- I'd be surprised if he ever wanted to fuck me, I'm always up shined, my mother hates me." I explained sighing. "What if I want you?" Chuck spoke. "You're just saying that because you wanna fuck me." I scoffed. "Say you want me too." He smirked. "I'd rather kiss a frog." I spat hanging up.
I dialed my counselor, "Hello, I need to book an appointment. I'm relapsing and I don't know what to do." I told the receptionist.
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𝐀𝐟𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐚 𝐥𝐨𝐧𝐠 conversation with my therapist it made me feel a lot better, we talked about my fear foods and the pressures I've felt recently. I got told to book an appointment and start to see her every week so hopefully that'll help me. However now we were at the fashion shoot first Blair was up, "Okay one more Blair before your sister goes up, jump around; loosen up on this one." The photographer encouraged her.
"Give me the biggest pose you got big big big!" He shouted as my sister didn't do a massive pose. "Okay good, Alexandra you're up." He told me as I swapped places with Blair. "Hey can you call me Alex, is that okay?" I asked him. "Perfectly fine, give me sexy." The photographer asked as I hip popped with a sexy pout and he took pictures. "Excellent! Give me more, give me crazy." He asked as I did the most crazy yet sexy pose I could.
"Yes yes! I like it, give me innocence and purity." He ordered as I obliged, "Beautiful! That's it for now take a break." He told me as I nodded going over to S and B. "That was great!" S smiled to us both. "It looked amazing A." B complimented. "You too." I smiled to my sister as she walked off to get a drink.
"To my eye got this; to this eye bleh. Blair needs to go have fun and loosen up like her sister." I overheard the photographer and Laurel talking. Serena and I looked at each other, "You know what we have to do right?" I whispered to her. "I do, lets do it." Serena smiled as it was Blair's turn to get her shots re taken.
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"𝐂𝐚𝐧 𝐰𝐞 𝐠𝐢𝐯𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 a little tip?" Serena asked kindly to my sister. "How did I know this was coming?" Blair rolled her eyes. "No no it's nothing bad just loosen up a little bit sis, you know shake it out." I told her as the two of us shook it out yet Blair didn't. "Maybe we could do like uh uh genie in a bottle." Serena suggested. "Or goofy." I chimed in. Blair looked over to Laurel and the photographer, "Help me, both of you. Please." She pleaded.
"Okay come on a tiger, rawr!" Serena smiled as we both rawred madly facing Blair. "Rawr!" Blair did a small rawr. "Come on more rawr! More tiger!" I encouraged rawring again as Blair rawred with more power. "Yeah! Yeah okay this time you're venus in a half shell so just go like, Ooh." I showed the girls. "Ah." They replied as we all looked like goofballs, I had a feeling it was working and that Blair would get good shots and even better ones tomorrow.
"Oh look they're coming crazy! Like uh Britney with the umbrella." S suggested as we all pretended to hold umbrellas, "Agh!" Blair shouted smiling, "At the car!" I shouted as Serena and I pretended to be hurt.
After much laughing, giggling and doing the shoot Serena's phone buzzed, "Oh shoot I gotta go. It's Dan." Serena spoke. "No you aren't, you're staying here. I need you, we need you." Blair told her. "We can't let our mother down." I spoke seriously. "Okay..." She sighed. Yet little did we know that Blair wouldn't be a model tomorrow...
𝙎𝙤𝙢𝙚𝙩𝙞𝙢𝙚𝙨 𝙬𝙝𝙚𝙣 𝙬𝙚 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙠 𝙬𝙚 𝙖𝙧𝙚 𝙙𝙤𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙗𝙚𝙨𝙩 𝙛𝙤𝙧 𝙤𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙧𝙨... 𝙄𝙩 𝙘𝙖𝙣 𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙡𝙡𝙮 𝙗𝙚 𝙥𝙧𝙤𝙫𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙞𝙧 𝙛𝙖𝙪𝙡𝙩𝙨... 𝙒𝙖𝙩𝙘𝙝 𝙤𝙪𝙩 𝘼 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙎, 𝘽 𝙢𝙖𝙮 𝙗𝙚 𝙘𝙤𝙢𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙛𝙤𝙧 𝙮𝙤𝙪... 𝙓𝙤𝙭𝙤 𝙂𝙤𝙨𝙨𝙞𝙥 𝙂𝙞𝙧𝙡...