two weeks later
• sophia
Driving . There is something so calming about driving .
I've been driving for two weeks now. I stayed in the state though because Lorenzo is still here .
But i've just been wandering . It's kinda dark right now and i just wrecked my car .
I'm scared . Not of anyone that could come to me right now . I'm scared because there is no one i can call .
I realised that being a cold hearted bitch who's best friend was her brother for 18 years .
Ya not a solid plan when your brother is in a coma .
My phone has been ringing . And ringing .
It's currently 2 am .
I have no one . Except the people i planned on leaving behind and never looking back on.
Reluctantly i picked up the phone . It went to voicemail . I knew it would. Mason sleeps with his phone off .
" Hey Mas , um i wrecked my car and um i realised i have like no one right now . I'm probably the last person you wanna see but
... i'm so scared . I told you i was going home , turns out i don't know where that is anymore . ....I'm sorry i shouldn't have called i know ."
I hung up . Five minutes later i was still sitting in my fucked up car with a bottle of whiskey .
Being alone can really make you go insane .
My phone rang . And for some reason i really wanted to pick up . So i did .
" Sophia ?"
" Hey ."
My voice was still shaky .
" I just got your voicemail , are you ok ?"
" No . I'm really not ."
" Send me your location."
" I cant see him ."
" He's asleep . I'll sneak you out tomorrow or whatever you decide to do ."
We hung up and after i debated it i sent it to him . I felt bad for leaving Ace without hearing him out . I felt i didn't need to because i know he didn't mean to hurt Lorenzo .
He didn't know Lorenzo took Michaels car . But he also didn't know it was Michael , he hit the car anyway . I also am mad he got involved . He complicates everything and i need a breather .
I still love him but i doubt he'd ever take me back after everything i've done .
Mason pulled up a half hour later . I got in and hugged him thanking him .
" This is why i'm your best friend."
" Of course ."
I missed Mason . We got in and snuck upstairs. The house was messy . Bottles left in random places .
Broken lamps and pictures .
Ace probably.
We went to his room and went to sleep after i caught him up on my life for the last few weeks .
• ace
I woke up hungover . Or drunk . I cant tell anymore . I've consumed so much alcohol in the last few weeks i can't think straight anymore .
I walked passed the bathroom and Mason was in there . I know it's him because i just saw Greg in his room .
I walked passed Masons door on my way downstairs when a noise made me stop . I've heard that noise more times than i can count .
It was Sophias sneeze . I'm sure of it . I walked back and saw her for the first time in weeks asleep on Masons bed .
I wiped my eyes and she was still there . Every second of every day my mind just replays her face when she got home that night . Something in her had changed toward me . I knew it the minute i saw her .
But here she is , right in front of me .
She's never leaving my sight again .
So i'm gonna do everything in my power to make her fall in love with me again . Anything to get her back . I cant even remember how i lived before her .
My heart is going three million miles an hour . I feel dizzy and nauseous and i can't tell if it's real or if I'm dreaming .
Mason came out of the bathroom and saw me . He quickly walked over and closed his door . I moved to walk in but he stopped me .
" Lorenzo is awake . They're running tests . The nurse has to call her back . Give her an hour then you can see her ."
" No ."
" Ace sit your fat ass down for one hour ok . I was meant to keep you from seeing her ."
" I cant believe i slept like an idiot with her in the next room ."
I heard her voice and it made my heart pound . She was talking but i couldn't make out what she was saying .
Then began the longest five minutes of my life . I sat on the ground against the wall opposite the door .
The talking stopped and i stood up . I heard her walk toward the door . She opened it and i don't know what i was expecting but what she did next kinda surprised me .
She looked frightened at first but then her face relaxed .
" Hi ." Her voice was soft and low .
" Hey ." I couldn't take my eyes off her .
" We need to talk ."
Then she just walked downstairs.
I followed her . My eyes stuck on her . I can't believe she's actually here .
" Sit ."
I sat down and she didn't even give me time to speak .
" For the past two weeks i've been alone with my thoughts and i was just thinking like a lot and i came to the conclusion i have no one . Other than my brother who by the way is ok , i have no one ."
" I'm glad he's ok ."
" Me too. Anyway as i was saying i also realised i'm nothing without my job , and no one will ever hire me in fear of you probably so i need my room back . Please ."
" You can have anything i just want you back Soph."
" As friends."
" Beggars cant be choosers i guess ."
" Ok i'll see you later ."
She got up to walk away .
" Sophia ."
" I haven't slept in my own bed in weeks . I really need to sleep ."
" I was just gonna say it's good to have you back ."
She went back upstairs and i decided to work out . Keep myself busy . I don't wanna smother her , i also wanna lock her in my room so i don't know .
At dinner she sat the other end of the table . I hated it .
" Are we still going tomorrow?" Everyone looked up at Greg . I forgot we were leaving tomorrow .
" Going where ?" Sophia was so calm . I kinda wish she would scream at me and get it out .
" We were gonna take a trip down to one of the houses ."
" I'm in ."
We ate and the boys told Sophia how busy work was the last two weeks . That's why we're leaving . We need a break .
We all went to bed soon after so we could get an early start tomorrow. I walked up the stairs after everyone else . Greg and Mason both hugged Sophia telling her how good it was to her her back .
She said night to both of them and then turned to me . I wasn't expecting her to hug me as well after everything but sure enough she held out her arms .
She rested her head on my chest and one of her hands was running through my hair .
" I've missed you so much ."
" Me too . I just want you to know we're ok . I know i ended things but you're still my best friend."
I'd honestly rather her stab me than say I'm her best friend but it's better than nothing .
She let go and i already wanted to pull her back .
" Night Ace ."
" Night Soph ."
I watched as she walked away into her room . She was so close yet so far . I walked into my room knowing she was in the next room .
She was right in front of me but until she's mine again i won't be happy .
I wish i could be just friends with her and be satisfied like she is .
But for some reason i can't . For now though just having her back in my life is enough.
I went to bed and fell asleep eventually, it was almost 2 am .
I fell asleep giddy like a child to see her tomorrow.
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