"𝑫𝒆𝒆𝒑"
MAJIA | jia
JUNE
Atlanta 📍
I was coming to my senses the longer I took care of me and me only. The website was done, I made 30,000 this week, and I hadn't contacted my ex in over a week. I felt amazing. I had so many things in the works. Buying a house was finally on my priority list.
I was hanging out with my best friend more and I had even went to smoke with Lijah for a day. Me and him used to be closer, so I was trying to close that gap again.
Right now, I was just coming home from the studio and it was time for me to make dinner. The grocery store was packed when I went yesterday, but I grabbed as much food as I could.
I quickly mad myself some pasta and garlic bread. Once it was done, I wrapped it up for tomorrow.
To be honest I was so drained from the day. There were so many people viewing the gallery since it was the weekend. There was buyer after buyer, and you know some of them were rude as fuck.
Also, Katie's stupid ass was there today and she kept interrupting every transaction that I was trying to make. I really didn't know why Ant didn't fire her already.
I went on to take a shower but before I got in I almost pissed my pants.
When I sat down it didn't feel like pee, it felt like a heavy period. But, I was in birth control and I hadn't had an actually period in almost three years.
I stood up hastily to look at the toilet.
I was horrified by what I saw.
It was gushy, clumped, and clotted blood. I immediately knew what was happening.
I felt sick at the sight.
Blood was still sticking to my skin as I thought about what to do. My tears slid down my cheeks before I could even make a decision. The best thing for me to do was sit on the toilet to avoid a big mess.
It was hard for me to formulate a clear thought. How was I supposed to react to this? This completely blindsided me.
I needed to figure out who to tell and how it happened and how I didn't notice. How was I so oblivious to the things happening in my body? I could've prevented this from happening.
I dialed my sister's number.
"Hey, bae! Guess what?! I got-" Destiny practically shouted through the phone.
I couldn't be bothered with whatever she was talking about. "I'm having a miscarriage." I said in a shaky voice.
Saying the words aloud made it worse. It made it reality.
"What? I-I'll, oh my gosh. I'm coming," then the line went silent.
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SAVIOR | sav
"Ow! Nigga, you pressing down way too hard."
"Bro, relax. Just let him do it this his second tattoo on an actual person," Ryan told me from behind his new apprentice.
"Ight, you luck that I'm even doing this." I laid back again.
This pain wasn't that much different than any other tattoo on my sleeves but I was probably just nervous because an amateur was doing it.
I was almost done and I definitely was gonna take extra time looking at it. It didn't take too long to do, thankfully.
A few minutes later the kid announced, "I'm done, bro. Go look at it." He ran a hand though his blonde hair.
I got up and walked over to the longs mirror on the other side of the room. I held my forearm up to look at the side of it. The new guy did pretty good, It looked clean, especially for a second time.
Every word was crisp. It was a play on Jia's tattoo that said 'My gifts are for you to use,' but instead mine said 'My gifts are for her to use.'
A nigga was down bad but I ain't care. She was my other half.
"I fuck with it, good looks. For real." I went to dap him up.
He wrapped it up for me and gave me some shit to take care of it.
After that, I paid at the front desk and walked toward my car. It was getting late in the day but I felt like going to work for bit.
Before I could even start my my car, my ringtone blasted from my pocket. It was Jia.
"Whattup, Gee?" I spoke first.
There was a short silence before the response, "Hey, um, it's Destiny. Can you come by Jia's real quick?"
My heart began to beat fast, "Yea, w-what's going on?" I started my car.
"Ion feel right telling you, so can you just come?"
That was too vague.
"I'm coming."
The next thing I knew, I was running up the steps and jogging down the hall to her apartment. The door was open but nothing felt right. The kitchen and living room were silent but going into her room, I heard soft sobs.
"Yo, what's going on? What's wrong?" I moved closer to where I saw Des sitting and Jia's figure laying down.
Destiny didn't say anything. She just left the room. That made me even more nervous.
I kneeled at the head of our bed and asked Jia to turn to me.
"Jia? Jia, what's wrong, baby?"
She shook her head, "I can't say it. I-I can't cause you're gonna hate me even more after this."
"Shhh, don't cry." I kissed her hand. "I could never hate you, bae. Just tell me what's wrong, so I can fix it."
"You can't fix it, Savior." She cried harder.
"I can try to make you feel better, at least."
She just shook her head and hid her face in her hands. I hated seeing her like this. I took off my shoes and climbed into her bed to embrace her. Jia was crying into my chest while I rubbed her back for about fifteen minutes before she looked up at me.
"Savior- I had a- a miscarriage."
This wasn't possible. I heard her wrong.
"Huh?"
"I'm so sorry. I'm so so sorry for doing this to you. I lost your baby and I- I'm so sorry. This is my fault."
My throat clogged up and I told myself not to cry. I was here to support her. This wasn't about me as much as it was about her.
How was I suppose to react?
"Don't apologize to me, Majia. Okay? I'm not mad at you. This was out of your control, baby. I'm not mad at you. I swear." I assured her.
This fucking sucked for me to go through but I assumed it was even worse for her.
"I know you woulda wanted the baby." She sniffled. "And I took that way from you. I feel so bad about it."
I would have wanted the baby, but it still wasn't her fault. I would have loved to have a baby by her. I would have loved to start a family with her. But, that wasn't an option right now.
"Listen to what I'm telling you, don't feel bad about this. You was on birth control, so you ain't think you could get pregnant. I'm good. You see me? I'm good."
Jia didn't say anything else, but I could still feel tears dripping onto my chest. I didn't know if this was some I could solve. It was irking me that I couldn't do anything besides be here with her.
I needed to change the subject.
"You wanna know what I did today?"
"Hmm? What you do?" Jia said lowly.
"I got a new tattoo," I smiled.
"Really? Where?" She lifted up her head slightly to check my upper body.
"Right here."
"Wher- oh, I see it. Hollup," She looked at me in realization.
I probably looked so crazy in this moment.
"You got a similar one to mine," her reaction wasn't the one I was expecting.
"You don't like it?"
"No, I like it. I just didn't see that coming."
Majia wasn't in the mood to fully evaluate my tattoo and that was okay. All I needed to do was distract her.
"What can I do to make you feel better, Jia?"
"Ion know."
I sighed and hugged her tighter. Her being this sad made me sad cause I couldn't do anything about it.
I thought a little more about it and I thought that we needed to call her doctor. I wasn't educated on this enough and she wasn't in the right head space to take care of her body.
"Baby, have you talked to your doctor?"
She shook her head.
"When did this start?"
"Yesterday."
She needed to go to the doctor.
"I need to take you to your doctor or just anyone that can give you a check up. Ion want nothing else to happen cause I ain't take you," I got out of bed.
"I don't want to."
"I have to take you, Majia. I needa make sure you okay."
"We can go tomorrow."
"Please, just come, ight? Just let me take you and then we'll come right home." I threw my shoes back on.
Jia reluctantly got out of bed and put a sweatshirt on. She went to the bathroom and then, when she came back, she put on some loose black shorts.
I grabbed her purse for her and held her hand as we walked to the car. We were gonna have to go to the emergency room.
We were stopped at a red light when I looked over to see her facing the window. Gee kept wiping her face with her hands, so I got some napkins out of my glove compartment and wiped it for her.
"I'm sorry," She told me.
"Stop apologizing."
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"Hi, so I understand that you are here regarding a miscarriage Ms.King?"
Jia cringed at the word, "Yea."
"Okay, just telling me what you're experiencing and then we're gonna do a ultrasound to see what's next. Is that okay with you?" The doctor asked us.
"Okay, so uh, it's like a really heavy period but like clumpy. Oh and I'm having really bad cramps and back pain." She didn't even look up as she spoke.
"Thanks for letting me know. We'll get right into the ultrasound. It won't hurt. Its just gonna be an uncomfortable feeling," She moved the machine and her big hair blocked my view for a second.
Majia reached for my hand and the lady put the gel on her stomach. I hated to see my baby in so much distress.
The doctor turned her head to focus on the ultrasound and so did we. Jia took a deep breath.
The silence was killing me. I couldn't figure out what the the hell the screen meant and I didn't know whether it was because I was a guy or whether it was because I was just dumb.
"It looks normal, no internal bleeding or too much tissue still left in the uterus. But, if you would like me to give you some pills to speed up the process U can do that." She turned off the machine.
"I'm good. I don't need them."
"Okay, well I'll just send you home with some bed pads, pads, and diapers, if it gets really heavy. If you have any unbearable pain, or an usual flow of blood, I want you to either call me or come back."
"Thanks, Dr. Harris."
"No problem hun, just go to the front desk and Rachel will take care of you there."
Jia got up and walked out to the front desk, but I was stopped by Dr. Harris.
"Hm?"
"I would like to ask you how she's handling this?"
Damn, I was gon have to snitch.
"She didn't know she was pregnant, but she feels really guilty. Like she been crying about it since it happened and she feels like she took a baby away from me." I spilled.
"Hmm, alright. If she gets worse over the next couple of weeks, call back here. Ms. King seems to be in a bad space right now, and that's understandable. We just don't want her to fall into a depression."
I had to keep an eye on her.
"Okay I will, thanks Doc."
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