"H-hello," I said, feeling my palms beginning to sweat. Why is she already here? I don't want to see her before I talk to Rantaro--but I guess there isn't anything I can do at this moment now.
"Hello, Shuichi! I wanted to ask you a serious question," Kaede said moving over to me making the nauseous feeling grow in my stomach. "What's the question Kaede?" She smiled softly before moving her hand to hold my arm.
"Would you like to be my boyfriend? I know you like Kokichi--and you rejected me--but I promise you that I will love you more than anyone and-" I cut her off feeling my irritation grow. I can't believe she would come here tonight wearing a more revealing dress and high heels to make her look more desperate....I should have seen it before when I first saw her.
She was wearing a pink dress that was tight and only went down to her mid-thigh, I could tell she was wearing stockings and honestly, it made me feel sick. Who does she think I am? I know she enjoys the idea of touching in more of a sexual sense--she made that more clear as I became closer friends with her and while she tried to get me to have the same feelings for her that she had for me. But this is going too far.
"Kaede," I said sternly, making her smile fade a bit. I could tell Rantaro was thinking of interfering...and I don't blame him. I could smell the alcohol on Kaede and I knew that she was already drunk. I'm sure she did this to try to cope with the fact that I will never be with her under any circumstances. "I am dating Kokichi, he and I love each other and I would never be with you as anything more than a friend." I kept my tone calm even though I felt like I wanted to scream, but we all know that would end up making things worse than they already are.
"But Shuichi!" She whined as she moved her body closer to mine making me even more uncomfortable...I know she is drunk but there are some lines you don't cross, regardless of if you are drunk, irritated, have mind fog--or others. "You should love me! You love me right? Kokichi is just someone you can use so you can make me jealous right?!" She said getting more frantic as the moment went on. I moved my arms to hold her shoulders making it possible for me to hold her away from me.
"No! Of course not...I love Kokichi, and I liked you as a friend at one point, but I'm not even sure if I want to be that with you anymore after the ways you have been acting." I said letting the words leave my mouth. I looked over at Rantaro who was standing up to pull Kaede away from me. "Kaede...leave Shuichi alone." He said before she moved out of his grasp and...
Kissed me.
The entire time she held my face harshly smashing her lips against mine I was trying to push her away from me, and after a few moments, Rantaro pulled her away smacking the back of her head. "What the hell Kaede?! Shuichi told you that he wasn't interested!" Rantaro said over the noise of the music before Kaede got angry.
"But he loves me! No one else!!" She started screaming, making me feel so guilty about everything. Every word she said was in anger...and she was angry with me. I felt so gross in my body I honestly just wanted to leave. I looked over at Rantaro to see if I could just go to find Kokichi and then leave. "He doesn't love you--see you...you made him cry." Rantaro said before I realized that there were tears running down my cheeks. Why am I crying?
"You know what Kaede, usually I would be tolerant of these things because you are a friend... was a friend, but this is too far, see you later," Rantaro said leaving Kaede to have a tantrum on the floor. Some of her other friends came into the room to comfort her as Rantaro walked over to me pulling me out of the room.
"I am so sorry about that...I was going to talk to you before Kaede came, but then when you came into the room--Kaede was also there..." He whispered this into my ear rubbing my back as I cried. I felt so gross like I had been violated by someone I thought I could trust. I felt like I didn't deserve to be with Kokichi anymore...I messed up, bad.
"Shu?" I heard a voice call out to me. I felt more tears run down my cheeks as I looked to where the voice came from. "Kokichi!" I called out before he just looked at me before pulling me into an embrace. His arms moved around my hips and pulled me close to him making me feel safe. "I'm sorry." I cried onto his shoulder before she slowly walked me out of the party holding onto my hand.
"It's okay, Rantaro told me about what's going on...let's go home and we can talk about it there." His grip on my hand tightened. He must be agitated about this as well, he seems more serious and I can't help but think this is all my fault. I shouldn't have come in at the time I did, I should have called Rantaro first--something to make sure this didn't happen! I wouldn't...I don't want him to have to be with someone like me...especially after what has happened.
"Hey Shumai, don't worry about it okay, it's okay to cry I know what happened must have been terrible for you..." He whispered as I noticed he guided me out to the car. I could feel my phone going off but I didn't even care about that. I wanted to be with my boyfriend...the only person who makes me feel okay and safe...I just hope that I am able to do the same.
Kokichi...
I was in the game room at the party and I was hanging out with Gonta, Nagito, Hajime, and Chiaki. The one occurrence I didn't expect Rantaro to text me with a message about Shuichi. I told him to keep me up to date about what was happening with Kaede--but I didn't expect a message like this right after Nagito beat us in super smash bros...
Rantaro: Kokichi...Shuichi is crying because Kaede forced him to kiss her...I need you to come up to get him out of here.
Kokichi: That bitch...he was trying to be polite about it--anyway I'm coming, tell Shuichi I'm coming.
Rantaro: Will do, please hurry.
I feel so sick that she even wanted to kiss him. What was going through her head to think she was aloud to kiss him or even touch him that way? He didn't want it...well I hope he didn't want it, I know Shuichi and he isn't one to just go with another and start making eyes at them when he tells me that he loves me. Most people lie to me, but I can see in his eyes that he isn't lying and that he wouldn't lie about something like that to me. Not that I wouldn't be able to spot the lie a mile away...but I know he wouldn't lie to me like this.
If he loved Kaede, then why would he go to all the trouble he does for me? Like in the lunchroom earlier...that was something he would never do on his own, he did that for me to make it up to me for the fact that he didn't mention our relationship to Kaede when we had gotten together.
I honestly hate Kaede. She is so possessive of him and the main reason I didn't try to make any big advances with him because she was all over him. Like she had claimed him...so many people assumed they were together which made me resort to teasing Shuichi instead of being honest with him.
I found him in the kitchen with Rantaro and he was already in tears."Shu?" I asked to get his attention before I moved over to hold him. "Kokichi!" He called out to me before I held his hand in my own and walked him out of the party with me. I felt my whole body clench from the anger I had because of what Kaede had done to my boyfriend. Who the hell does she think she is?! No...you need to be calm about this. Shuichi is panicking and being angry will just make him more on edge.
"It's okay, Rantaro told me about what's going on...let's go home and we can talk about it there." My grip on my hand tightened. I tried my best to keep myself calm but I wanted to walk back into the damn party to slap Kaede across the face. I know she must have been drunk like most of the people upstairs--which is why I was downstairs...but that is no excuse for her to do these things to my Shumai.
"Hey Shumai, don't worry about it okay, it's okay to cry I know what happened must have been terrible for you..." I whispered as I guided him out to the car. I could hear his phone going off so I decided to take it out of his pocket as I led him to the passenger seat. He sat down as some stray tears fell. Before I moved to the driver's seat with his keys I kissed the tears off his cheeks before kissing his forehead and leaving a gentle kiss on his lips.
He seemed to calm down from that before he pulled me into the passenger's seat to hold me in his lap. I sighed softly before moving to look him in the eyes. "Can you wait until we get home to cuddle? Or do you need some right now?" I asked slowly as he moved to pull me closer to him. "Guess that answers my question," I said with a small laugh as he relaxed.
I know this was because he wanted to avoid having to talk about this later, but at this moment I want to help Shuichi feel better. So at this moment, me and Shuichi are the only people who matter, the only people who are here in the world, without the worries of the others who have harmed us, because we are all that is here. All that is here when we are alone together.
-Ah when people don't understand how to give up on someone who is taken...I know this all too well when others do not understand that they are not what I desire/need in my life. Thank you all for reading! Best of luck to you all!-
-SK-