Love hurts *Matthew Espinosa*

Chapter 21: Runaway

I finally stopped running. I look around. I'm at the beach. Great.
I continued to walk around, trying to forget my past, my hurt, my pain.
I shouldn't have left. I should have stayed in New York.
No.
Trevor should have let me die.
Flashback
Maybe I should die, I cause to much problems. I faced the road and saw a car coming. When the car was near, I ran in front of it. Ready to die. But someone grabbed me before the car it me and pulled me back.

" What were you doing out there?"

" I want to die, ok! Who are you?" I didn't recognize him.

" I'm Trevor. Why do you want to die?"

" I don't want to talk about it."
Flashback over
I closed my eyes. What is the point of life? I still cause problems. I don't belong in this world. I can't be pretty. Why do I even try to be pretty?
I breathed like I wanted to enjoy the salty air.
Go back home to New York. I would be alone and people won't have to deal with me. I started walking to my parents' house. Maybe they can help me.
I knock on their door. I waited then knocked again.
" What do you want?" I hear my dad shout. He opened the door. I expected him to break into a smile and hug me but he just stood there.
" Look, it's ugly." My dad laughed. He is drunk. My mother came. Also drunk.
" Mom... dad..." I didn't know what to say.
" Shut up, you. Where are my... um...." He looked around.
" Dad." I said, louder. He faced me. He looked angry. He slapped my face.
" I said shut up." He said. I held cheek, holding my tears. I turned around and walked away.
My past... every horrible thing... is coming back. My love life, friendship, whatever.... it's tearing apart.
" Why? Why? Why?" I kept saying to myself. I ran again. I ran to the beach. I walked in the pier. I watch the waves crash in the shore.
Why is this so complicated? My life- everything. What did I do? What did I do to deserve this? All this pain, anger, regret, sadness.
" Tori?" I hear Matthew.
" Leave me alone." I said as I felt my tears fall.
" I'm not leaving you alone." He came closer.
" Leave me alone, Matthew! " I tried pushing him away but he held on to me. He put me in his arms. I cried.
" I hate myself." I said.
" Don't say that." He said.
" You don't get it. I'm a problem that no one wants to fix." I said.
" I'm sorry." He mumbled. I faced him. Our eyes connected. He wipe away my tears.
" I'm sorry for hurting you. For lying. Everything I had done to hurt you, I am sorry. I know you won't forgive me but I just wanted to tell you..."
" Matthew, I don't know if I can forgive you but I miss you so much and I don't know why-" He cut me off by crashing his lips on mine. I pushed him away.
" No, Matt." I said as I walked away, wiping my tears. I didn't know what to do anymore. I don't want to go back to that house.
" Hey, Tori." A car was by me. I recognize that voice.
" Tony, get away before I call the cops." I said.
" You are having such a bad day. Get in. I don't bite, I promise." He flashed a smile.
" I'm not stupid." I said.
" Tori! Wait!" I look to see Matthew running to me. I didn't want to be with him right now.
" You're coming?" Tony asked. I nodded and got in.