WOUNDED

CHAPTER 52

Kacely
Song: Hard place - H.E.R.

Az takes my hand and leads me through the crowd across the yard to the house.

The house isn't really big on the inside,but it's beautiful. Everything is either grey, blue, white or black - including the flowers. The furniture is mostly glass and it's really classy. This is one of the reasons why I need to work hard and get rich, so I can afford a place like this.

She leads me to the staircase and as we ascend the stairs, my heart keeps thumping. A whirlwind of mixed emotions sweep through my body. What should I expect?
What does she want to talk about?

We stop in front of a door and she looks at me before opening it and getting in. I follow her inside and when I see the numerous oversize hoodies hanging in the wardrobe I know it's her room.

It's pretty OK. It has Az written all over it.

"Your room's nice" I compliment with a smile.

"That's not important. Thanks but it's not important right now." She says nervously

"What is then? Why'd you bring me here?"

"I um... Shit. How do I say this?" She cusses and paces the room

"Calm down Az... It's just me." I repeat her words and fold my arms. She leans against the table and smiles.

"You know I'm not at all romantic right? So this will obviously suck. I just hope it won't be as bad as I imagined it to be."

"Just spill it" I say and my lips twitch at the side. I know where she's going and I can't wait.

"OK Zacchy." She breathes "I've been thinking a lot lately..."

"About what exactly?"

"About us... You and me." She says and my spirit lights up. "And um... Well mainly since the day you told me you loved me in the library and I freaked out because I was shocked and didn't expect you to. From then to that time when we had sex in the safehouse and you saw Ken's message and freaked out and said you wouldn't touch me till I accept to be with you... And then when..."

"You really don't need to narrate the whole thing." I chuckle and she joins me.

"Right. I um... I've also been thinking about what you said about me being afraid to love again and I don't think I even know if I know what love even is. I don't know if I loved Trevor or if I was just... I don't know. But with you, I feel something different. I feel something... more. Something way beyond body talk."

"And what do you call that feeling?" I ask, seriously trying to fight the smile on my lips.

"I don't know... Um... Please don't make this harder." She chuckles.

"Give it a name Az"

"I um... It's... Fuck." She giggles nervously

"Describe it at least" I demand, trying to play it cool but still so anxious to hear what she'll say.

"It's a weird ass feeling Zacchy, it's foreign... It's annoying as shit. It makes me feel really stupid, super vulnerable, scared, safe, sure yet unsure..." She giggles "I really don't know how to describe it"

"Is it just me or are you trying to say you have cardiac itches for me?"

She laughs, she bursts into laughter and looks at her feet before looking up at me and nodding.

"Yes..." She whispers and I slowly walk closer to her.

"I didn't hear you." I coax.

"Yes... I do have... cardiac itches for you. God this is so cheesy"