Not built for that

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TW. Mentions of suicide, death, sh, and more

NICOLES POV

I'm fixing up my room right now we just moved to our new house in la. So fucking happy we left there but i do kinda miss all the memory's. Maybe i should let go of the past

"NIKK COME MAKE A TIK TOK WITH MEEE" charli screams tackling me onto my bed

"Ooww char no not after you hurt me" i fake cry

"Aww you big baby stop being a bitch" Charli scoffs and sets her phone up on my dresser

"CHARLI GRACE LANGUAGE" I scold

"Yeah yeah what ever now dance" charli demands

(A/n Ik that's not the dance but whatever)

Charlidamelio

 Charlidamelio- @nicoledamelio didn't want to dance with me I'm crying

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Charlidamelio- @nicoledamelio didn't want to dance with me I'm crying

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Song: Baby, you might need a seatbelt when I ride it
I'ma leave it open like a door, come inside it
Even though I'm wifey, you can hit it like a side chick
Don't need no side dick, no
Got the neighbors yellin', "Earthquake" (earthquake)
4.5 when I make the bed shake (bed shake)
Put it down heavy even though it's lightweight (it's lightweight)
(It's lightweight, yeah, yeah, yeah, babe)

Comments

User- damn i mean 2 fine girls right there

Dixiedamelio- umm your forgetting the best damelio...

User- ok but like you can't say that Nicole's not hot

Nicoledamelio- ha

User- i ain't never seen 2 pretty best friends

User- noah beck what the heck why does everyone make fun of your neck

Lilhuddy- char dancing on point
User- who wanna bet he was looking at her ass cheeks

User- Nicole on fire

User- have you heard almost all tiktok boys simp over Nicole But Nicole simply doesn't care. Except the taken ones ofc
Swayla- facts

User- what's that thing on Nicole's knee


"You forgot about me" Dixie says being over dramatic again laying down on my bed beside me

"Dix don't over react charli over there called me a bitch" i fake cry

"CHARLI THAT ISNT NICE IM TELLING MOM" Dixie jokes

"Why is everyone obsessed with you Nikki and you don't even care" charli asks

"Someone's jealous" Dixie laughs

"Am not"

"It's not that i don't care i do care but like I'm not built for the fame you know. Like I'm built to fuck up my life be normal and do dumb shit" i shrug

"Your not built to fuck up your life don't be ridiculous" Dixie says

Ok yes i am sad and i do think that about myself. About almost a year ago i was in this huge car accident. With my best friend ally. Me and Ally one day we're on the road driving to the mall for some odd reason but on the highway a truck was swerving on the roads and hit Ally's car. It hit her side and her car flipped over 3 times. The impact of the truck hitting her killed her almost instantly. They tried reviving her but it didn't work. I some how lived but faced the consequences of the crash. I was in a coma for about a month with a torn acl broken rib broke wrist and concussion. They weren't sure if i was going to live or not but i obviously did. Ally wasn't as lucky as me though she passed on November 30th 2018. Now it's November 28 2019 and i live in la now. So it's tomorrow marks one year without her

I had to recover. Luckily i didn't get any brain damage. I had to learn how to walk again due to being in a coma for so long and having a torn acl. It was complete torture. I was very depressed at the time blaming myself for Ally death. I couldn't even make the funeral i was in the hospital. Just knowing that she died beside me haunts me to this day.

Now I'm fully recovered i have to wear a knee brace if I'm going walking for a long time sometimes. I'm still very sad. I've lost weight for not eating which was best for me to not eat. In middle school i got bullied by these nasty kids and Ally was the one to stick up for me. That's how we met. Charli and Dixie both have said that I've had a major glow up and all the boys are drooling over me now

Towards the end of my recovery charli started to get famous on tik tok. Being the competitive sister i am and wanting to take my mind off things i made an account too. It's not really a compilation between me and charli i didn't want to be famous anyways but i guess i kinda am. I blew up off of my first tik tok dancing by myself and from there on i gained a massive following with a whopping 67.2million followers on tik tok being one of the biggest creators on the app

I mean i am grateful but i don't want to be famous. Like i said I'm built to fuck up my life and do dumb shit. Mom and dad keep on telling me the crash wasn't my fault and that Ally dying but i can't believe it. It should've been me dying not her. She was also suicidal at the time she was sad she got cheated on but i guess she's in a better place now. Without me

I've grown suicidal too during my healing time. My sisters and parents were there to help me. I had like no friends at school besides ally. I was a fuck up though i hung out with the wrong crowd and hooked up with randoms. To this day i still cut. And i actually have cuts on my arm right now. 2 on each side.

"Chase and griff are coming over since mom and dad are in Connecticut for the next few weeks I'm in charge so listen to me" Dixie says

"Woah woah ok Dixie sticks" i put my hands up and laying down flat on my face and i hear the door bell ring

"THERE HERE" charli yells and runs out the room with Dixie following her

A few minutes later they all come into my room and sit on the couch across from my bed where i stayed put i didn't even move.

Mom and dad agreed to give me the biggest room if i let my sisters and our friends hangout there anytime. My room is second biggest. It has a bed couch tv with a PlayStation bean bag table walk in closet bathroom huge mirror tall ceilings. Yeah cool right. Ally would've loved it

"Hey nikki" griff and chase both says "hi" i mumble and they turn on some sort of movie as i lay on my bed and they cuddle. It's late really late i don't know why they came over this late it's 12am. I fell asleep on my bed

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Welcome to the new story guys I hope you enjoy it

I've been gone for a while kinda sorry about that one

Anyways have a good day enjoy and don't forget
To STREAM "BETTER OFF DEAD" RFN I HAVE IT ON REPEAT

Cloudy with a chance of depression 😔

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