Over Me (COMPLETED)

Chapter 2

What I abhor after School Moon is that I'm exasperated without even a proper reason why.

I got the slightest idea of what happened that daylight. That day only because I could still hear and see the eyes of people when sun's still up but when it's already gone?

I can't even picture a single thing.

Our whole table is filled with laughter, hindi ko alam kung dahil ba masaya sila at wala na kaming inaasikasong iba tutal tapos na ang School Moon or they are talking about something I'm not listening to.

Kanina ko pa pinaglalaruan ang pagkain. May gana naman ako kanina but the same thought hits me again kaya wala tuloy akong gana.

What's worse now is that I can't even make myself sing about what's happening to me. Alam ko na naging masaya ang huling School Moon naming seniors yet I look like someone pulled out an organ in me.

Perhaps it really was.

"Here.." dumaan sa tingin ko ang relo ni Weslee. "I'm full.."

He's already drinking his drinks when I pointed my eyes at him. Out of nowhere, I start to elaborate what's good about my friends. Apart from the people keep saying we should have a debate, so they can identify who's the smartest, alam ko naman na siya talaga ang mas lamang kaysa sa akin.

His eyes are bigger than mine. Sabi ni mama sa akin, mas nakuha ko talaga mukha ng father ko and although I got no image to prove it right, she said he's singkit like me. Parehong matangos ang ilong namin but my lips are way more thin than his.

That explains why some are dying to be kissed by him.

On top of that, I didn't care if he's way more appealing than me. Magka-iba kaming ng gusto, he likes hooking-up than to study and me is vice-versa. What's annoying is that he can do both.

Paano pa kaya ako? I mean... wala pa akong ex unlike him na... how many is it? Seven? Eight? Nine? I'm way more sure to nine exes kaya iyon na lang. Tapos ako wala pa.

Ayoko lang talaga. Although I sometimes go along with him, I experienced some hook ups and make outs in a dark room, however, magkaiba talaga kaming dalawa.

"May dumi ba ako sa mukha?"

The thought of him were immediately cut off and put me in the same situation again. "None.."

Kinuha ko na lang ang pagkain na bigay niya. I know him for years, ako lagi ang pinagbibigyan niya ng pagkain, whether I ask him to or not. He's like that, I don't know why, hindi niya maubos nang buo ang pagkain.

He should be thankful I'm his buddy. "Then why are you checking me out?"

"Don't make me be like some of your girls, Weston Lee.." tawa ko. "Do you have something to do after this day?"

Nagsimula umalis ang iba naming kasama para gumamit ng banyo. "For today... yes and for tomorrow, same answer.."

Biglang bumagsak ang braso ko sa narinig. He never asked why after kaya nalunod na naman ako sa naiisip. Plano ko pa naman sanang ayain siya bukas tutal Sabado naman at wala kaming pasok. Sa Monday pa naman kami magsisimula mag review dahil last exam na namin for this sem ang gaganapin sa susunod na unang linggo ng susunod na buwan.

Someone approached him and I was left all alone. May nagtatanong sa harapan ko and that's just for a short time. Naiiwan pa rin ako sa iniisip.

What the fuck is the matter with you, Eoghan?!

I'm starting to resent myself for feeling this way. Kahit anong pilit ko na mapaamin ang sarili kung bakit, wala akong napapala! But I knew something triggered me that night and this is the crime scene!