written on 11/14/20
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why didn't you listen?
the weight of your body crushes me
but that's not why i can't breathe
i'd rather it be me that lost completely
but it was you instead
i scream so loud, as if that would bring you back
your eyes are empty now
though you were just looking at me
it's as if i were the one that took the bullet
it hurts so much
to picture moving forward
i feel i'll forever be stuck in this moment
your blood on my hands
feeling you slowly die on me
i tried to tell you everything in that moment
but you told me not to
why would you do that?
did you already know what i was going to say?
what i would give to feel your shallow breath on my face
to feel your heart beating faintly against mine
to have that warmth from your body try to fight the cold
instead i am now left alone
with someone that used to be mine
i don't think i could ever move forward
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this probably wasn't what you were expecting but i was randomly inspired by something and this went into the "forbidden" journal, hence why it's unstructured and story oriented. i didn't hold back so if you're like wth is this don't worry about it babe love you have a good night.
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folie
Poetryjournal-like entries taken from my journal filled with poems and tales that might not make much sense to you. read if you don't mind it, though.
