folie

a moment of contemplation

written on 12/24/20

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there's a moment

where we're watching the sky coat the ground in a frozen blanket

that i start to feel waves of emotion roll over me

for the first time it's something i don't dread

i feel joy, warmth in my heart that used to be cold

this sensation that captures me,

as i look up to you,

is one i hope will linger

to be this fulfilled is not what i'm used to

having this much love to have and to give

is all i've ever wished for

better than anything i could hope for

i realize that this is how many feel every day

waking up each morning to find not one thing wrong

enjoying the way their toast is just a little bit burnt

and the cold winter air that bites at their nose is nothing more than a reason to stay inside all day

though it isn't a hinderance

to be "trapped" inside with the one you dream of

is nothing short of enchanting

to feel this way, for even just a fraction of a second,

is more than long enough for me to be envious of those who don't have to search for that second

they already have each minute of the day with joy in their smile

a beat in their step that i hope they know they have

and don't take it for granted

for they say, you don't know what you have 'til it's gone

even just the moment i feel it i fear when it fades

so i pray no one else's is taken away

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just something i was thinking about/feeling tonighttt idk just got hit with some inspiration seeing the snowww. anyways merry christmas (eve) / happy holidaysss :)) love ya