tomorrow without you | TWICE Saida

35 one last time [end]

It's been 6 months.

Many things have changed, we were no longer the young kids.

We slowly became a part of the older group, we started sitting at Mina's side of the hall.

The modified sitting arrangements made us get closer, though a huge part of me still saw them as Sana's close friends.

I'd often sneak questions into conversations.

"Do you still keep in touch with Sana?"

"Remember when Sana played this game with us at camp,"

"Sana would love this,"

I would come up with numerous ways of bringing Sana into the conversation.

Hoping to get something. Most of the time they just shrugged it off.

Except today.

"Sana is having her holidays in Japan, so she's flying back here to visit!" Mina declared to the group of us.

"Perfect timing! Your birthday party is next week!" Taehyung said.

Oh.

I'd see Sana next week, for the first time in 6 months.

It was the biggest deal.

"Dahyun? Aren't you excited? Weren't you close with Sana?" Jin asked, making me realised I was zoning out.

"I am!" I laughed.

So many possibilities.

We could bump each other at front door and enter together.

Or I could text her and we can take a cab there together.

We could happen to sit on the same couch and start conversation.

So many possibilities.

——

I was in my favourite dress, excitedly walking towards Mina's front door.

No Sana in sight.

So some possibilities have already been eliminated.

That was fine.

I had the whole night.

Then I push open the doors, walking in the the living room filled with a cacophony of sounds.

Party music, people's cheers, Sana's laughter.

Sana's laughter.

I couldn't hide my smile.

It took so much willpower to not run to her side immediately.

"The last group is here!" Taehyung greeted us.

"We can do the cake cutting now!" He signalled for everyone to gather around the cake on the table.

So we did.

I could wait.

Happy birthday to you,

Sana was beside Mina, her face lit up by the orange candle flame.

There was this ache that hurt so bad it left me frozen.

Paralysed, unsure of what to do next.

Happy birthday to you,

Knowing this was the most anticipated meeting,

Knowing it was the last meeting.

Happy birthday to Mina,