I was in the dressing room holding the eyeshadow palette and the fluffy brush in my hands waiting for jin to come back and get his makeup done.
" Jin you're performing in half an hour, please come here-" I sighed as he played with his girlfriend's puppy.
" Liv can we talk at home? We have to perform soon." he asked her as she nodded with a smile and left the room with her dog.
I sighed as I started applying his makeup, I had feelings for him since forever and I couldnt bear seeing him with his girlfriend.
I felt an unwelcome tear escape my eye as I looked at him, still happily smiling while he looked at her photos on his phone.
More tears slowly fell as I tried wiping them quickly, but they fell onto jin's phome, grabbing his attention.
" Omg y/n what happened? Why are you crying? " he sounded concerned, he immediately put his phone aside and looked at me.
Taking the palette from my hand, he put it on the table and looked at me concerned.
" What happened? Why are you crying?"
" It's nothing jin, let me get back to your makeup-" I took the palette into my hands and started putting on more makeup.
" I already look handsome and I don't need more makeup, now tell me what's happening or I'll walk out like this." he threatened me.
" Jin it's just- it's complicated please- " I tried shrugging the feeling off as I kept applying the makeup.
" So you don't think you should tell me, am I a stranger to you? " he asked making a sense of guilt seep into my heart.
" Jin I love you okay- I have feelings for you." I spat out quickly before slamming the brush down.
" What? What did you just say? " he was shocked, I was stunned at his ability to ignore all the hints I had dropped.
I took a deep breath and planted my lips on his quickly and just then I heard the door click open making my backbone go straight in shock.
" J-jin? " Liv's voice was heard, making me get off his face and use the desk as a support.
" Liv look it's not what you think" he stood up as he walked closer to her, she walked back.
Passing a water bottle to her, he stood up straight. " Explain jin. " Liv's stone-cold voice sounded in the room.
" Y/n do you want to explain yourself? " jin's voice sounded, I looked at both of them with tear filled eyes.
" I don't have any feelings for her liv- " I interrupted jin, I couldn't hear it after liking him for 10 years.
" Olivia, I have feelings for him and I forced myself on him. " I said, I wished so badly I could run away from there.
Admitting it aloud made me want to die there so badly but I held it together, or I thought I did.
" Jin, I need space, I'm sorry- I'll call you tomorrow." Olivia said before leaving the room coldly.
All the guilt in the world seemed to be hitting me at once, making me weak as hell.
" Are you happy y/n? She is the hirl that I love, I'm sorry I see you as nothing more than a friend y/n I-" he stopped himself from saying any further.
" L-let me do your makeup. " I said and started applying it on him again more precisely this time.
He sat there as if he had hated it, his facial expressions were so apparent, I had made him hate me.
I ruined his relationship putting him in a dilemma with the love of his life. What more could I expect from him?
I felt tears spring to my eyes but I held it together for the time being, those tears could only be shown to my closet walls, no one else.
His face was so emotionless that it scared me, but I finished his makeup successfully.
Taking the clothes I prepared for the performance, I gave them to him.
He wordlessly took them and walked to the closet, closing the door behind him.
He had never done that before.
It looked like I was not even worthy to see him shirtless anymore. It was my fault anyway, feeling a piercing pain through my chest, I held onto his chair for support.
He walked out of the room and went on the stage, as I watched him from backstage, I felt my insides twist.
He didnt even smile once,his body movements were urgent and hard, he looked like he was fully concentrating.
But only I knew he was angry, I knew I had done a mistake that couldnt be redeemable. Finishing his two songs, he came to the backstage.
I gave him a white towel and carefully wiped his face making sure the makeup wasn't gonna be ruined.
His expressions didnt have much of a change, and he still looked mad. I realized that I was nothing but an eyesore right now.
" Amelie can you please help jin with his makeup and touch ups?" I asked taehyung's stylist.
She nodded, I walked out of the venue slowly, taking myself to wherever my feet were going, I found myself at an empty bus stop.
Sitting on the bench, I held my knees close to my chest as I started letting the tears fall.
" I'm so sorry jin, for hurting you with my love."
