The Burning Desire

Chapter 32

"Good, I wanna sleep now, my. Can I sleep at your room please?" He asked in a puppy eyes.

Napangiti ako dahil sa ginawa niya.

5 years ago, last February 16, I gave birth to a healthy child here at United States of America in New Jersey.

Xanley is now 5 years old. He is already in kindergarten here in New Jersey. He's pretty much taller than any of his classmates. He is warm sometimes but he can get a little cold and shy too.

He is fair, namumula ang kaniyang pisngi sa tuwing siya ay napapagod at tuwing malamig. I can say that he got a lot of his features from me. His eyes is soft and warm. He has this brownish hair that makes him look so good, much like a foreigner.

"Oh? I thought you're a big boy now? Bakit gusto mo na katabi pa rin ako?" Ngumisi ako sa kaniya.

We have separate rooms here in our house. Ang gusto ko kasi ay matuto siyang mag-isa sa kuwarto. But I don't think he likes that idea dahil lagi siyang nakakahanap ng dahilan upang tumabi sa akin which Is completely fine.

I like my son hanging around me. It is very much comfortable to have him around, even when we sleep.

Sumimagot naman siya sa akin. "Mama, I just don't want you to get scared." Tumango-tango pa siya.

Pinanliitan ko siya ng mata at ngumisi. "Okay, If you say so." Sabi ko sa isang nag-aasar na boses.

Namula ang kaniyang pisngi. "Mama stop teasing me!" Sigaw niya sa akin at mahinang hinampas ang aking tuhod.

"Okay, okay." I chuckled because of his reaction.

Yumuko ako at kinarga na siya habang tumatawa. He pouted because of what I did ngunit iniyakap din naman niya ang kaniyang braso sa aking leeg.

Dire-diretso akong lumabas mula sa aking working room at dumiretso na sa aking kwarto.

"Okay, sleep now Xanley." I whispered at his hear.

Inayos ko ang kaniyang pagkakahiga at ang kumot niya. Tumabi ako sa kaniyang gilid.

"Mama, when is my Tito's and Tita's coming back?" Nag-angat siya sa akin ng tingin.

Bumango siya mula sa pagkakahiga at sumiksik sa aking braso.

"Hm... I don't know, baby. They are also busy at the Philippines. Why? Do you miss them na?" Nag taas ako ng kilay sa kaniya.

He pouted before nodding. "Yes, I also miss Lolo and Lola. I don't have anyone to talk to here, we are always alone." Nag-iwas siya sa akin ng tingin.

I sighed. We are both living alone here. Mayroon naman kaming mga katulong na ipinadala ni Mommy and Daddy dito but I guess my son doesn't find comfort with them.

My Mommy and Daddy stayed with me through out my pregnancy. My cousins and other relatives also visit often to check on me.

After a year, when I gave birth to Xanley I told to my parents that they have to come back to the Philippines. I know that it is must hard for them because they can not handle the companies properly.

"Don't you have friends at school?" I asked. "How about Gray and Blue?" I asked.

Gray and Blue is his cousin from my mother's side. They do not live that far away from our house. They are also in the same campus.

"Yeah, I am friends with them but... I miss lolo and lola." He pouted.

I looked at him heavily. Not a few minutes later, sleep already ate him up.

Hinawakan ko ang kaniyang buhok at hinalikan ang kaniyang noo.

I know that it is also hard for Xanley. He is close with mommy and daddy, pati na din sa kaniyang mga tito at tita. His mood shifts immediately whenever he see's his Tito's.