happy pill

on marriage and god

it used to make me sad:

wondering if we'd be married in heaven

wondering if our love could be so special

that it would be allowed to last forever

and at the time I would often wonder

will I even go to heaven?

how presumptuous of me

what if you go there

and I cannot follow?

and now there are some days

I wonder if I even believe in god at all

but I always believe in you

and I guess you're a good enough answer

to every question