Ship Sailed

TayNew

"the kids are weird" Tay said. placing his bags o nthe sofa and plopping next to New

"It's nothing" New said turning the tV and on scrolling through the netflix shows

"well, you were also weird, when you left me for months" tay mumbled, New faced him and looked him straight in his eyes

"are you still mad at me?" he asked, Tay just blinked at him and smiled

"I was. I really was upset that time." he softly spoke. he held New's hands and squeezed it

"But then, when you spoke to me first all of frustration, the anger, the sadness was gone. I don't even know why. I was supposed to be angry at you, I was supposed to be ignoring you." He added

"I'm really sorry." Was all New Could muster to say.

"I really was lost back then. I just couldn't think straight back then, I was confused, with my identity as a person, and if i actually deserve your love." New traced the lines on Tay's palms, playing with it, trying to distract himself to not tear up.

"can you look at me" slowly lifted NEw's face to match his

"Can you promise me? promise me that we'll talk with each other through all of it, that we will always have a talk when something comes up? that we will not ignore when we're having a fight, that we will not sleep when one of us is angry at one another?" Tay said held out his pink finger. but before New could close the gap between their fingers they were startled at the sudden screech from the nook

"Waah! Thanks! PA! MA!" Nanon shouted, grabbing his jacket as he go out. New and Tay smirked as they watch him scurrying to the door

"By the way, do you seriously have to put me on the spot like that?" New glared at Tay and the Tay immediately backed out

"well, I did it for our son's sake!" Tay said raising his arms up signalling surender

"Ohoo, dude you're not getting away like that!, what if I missed your improv?" New complained torturing Tay with the biggest pillow they have at hand

"Well it all worked out in the end!" Tay hugged NEw but the latter didn't budge, he broke free in an instant and they continued their pillow fight

"You seriously have to improv like that?" New still didn't let the topic gets buried and keeps on just throwing pillows at Tay

"It isn't improv if its planned! also we have to approach it like that for Nanon to learn!"

"And you have the audacity to use that topic?" New looked furious than ever

" well it's true though!It's not like i didn't meant everything i said earlier! I was so angry at you! I was frustrated! you left me then New" Tay softly said, New stopped in an instant, this is the first time he's hearing this.

"I'm sorry, i should've listened back then" New said unconsciously which surprised Tay.

They both silently walked up stairs to their room, both finding the right timing to speak up.

"You see, that time, I was always bashed and was always called off" New this time properly spoke up. not wanting the tense to linger longer

"I was also scared, scared to be judged, scared to be seen, and scared to be left" New explained, he was tearing up while doing so. Tay enveloped him in a hug, the tightest he could.

"I'm sorry, I guess I was selfish at that time, I guess I haven't listened to you."

"But then, I we were also too young back then. Our ego and our pride waa eating us up." New muttered. He is still crying. He just wanted to let all of his emotions out without filter, he knew this is the right time and might be the only time he could speak up; courage surged up.