The Possessive Sociopath

CHAPTER 20

Chapter 20: The Wedding

Reeve Lowel's Point of View

"You're really not coming to their wedding?" Colleen asked for hundred of times. Nandito kami ngayon sa living room habang nakatapat sa aking laptop. Nakaupo ako sa sahig samantalang siya naman ay prenteng nakahiga sa sofa at mayroong fries na nakapatong sa kanyang itaas.

She's watching a movie which isn't interesting at all. It's already Sunday in the morning and Stevan's wedding will occur at five in the evening.

"I am not coming. Sasaktan ko lang ang sarili ko. Kapag pumunta lang ako sa kasal nilang dalawa ay maiinggit lang ako kay Erin." I honestly told her while typing on my laptop. I am emailing my manager that I will have a three days leave for me to unwind. This emotional issue I am experiencing as of this moment is becoming out of hand. Hindi ako makapag focus sa trabaho ko. At tama nga si Colleen, kailangan ko munang umalis at magbakasyon kahit ilang araw lang.

I envy Erin for which she's now starting to have a family of her own. Oo naiinggit ako sa kanya. Matagal ko nang pinapangarap magkaroon ng buong pamilya. I am such an insecure girl. 

"I can't wait to marry you." Sabi ni Stevan habang sinusubukan akong yakapin mula sa aking likuran. Agad naman akong dumitansiya sa kanya. Nandito ako sa condo niya at pinagluluto ito ng kanyang paboritong pagkain.

Napaka busy niya kasing tao at minsan na lang kaming magsama na dalawa.

"Me too, but not now." I told him while trying to cut the vegetables.

"Why? I think we're in the right age to marry." Ramdam ko ang biglang paglungkot ng kanyang boses.

"I'm just waiting,"

"For what?"

"For the right moment." I said. Ayokong magpadalos dalos ng desisyon sa buhay. Marriage will be a big step that I will take and I'm not ready for it.

"Okay, I understand. I won't pressure you anymore baby." Stevan mumbled, kissing my cheeks.

"I still love you."  He added and I smiled. He's still sweet even though we're still together for years now. Hanggang ngayon ay kinikilig pa rin ako sa tuwing sinasabihan ako ni Stevan na mahal niya ako.

"I love you too." I answered back at him as we started to have our dinner.

Napagod siguro si Stevan kakahintay sa akin kaya hindi nakatiis at pinakasalan si Erin. Lalo lang bumigat ang dibdib ko nang maalala ko si Stevan. Dumating na ang matagal kong kinakatakutan. Ang mahulog siya sa iba habang kami pa. And so he decided to cheat and now he's marrying her.

"Mahal na mahal kita Reeve. Ikaw lang ang babae na mamahalin ko ng ganito." Biglang nag echo sa aking isipan ang madalas sabihin ni Stevan. Bull.

"Kalimutan mo na lang siya Reeve. Sarili mo lang pinahihirapan mo." Maybe some will say that I am just being difficult. Iniwan lang naman ako, pero bakit ang paghihirap ko ay sobra-sobra? They will never understand until they put their self in my shoe. I made Stevan my world and my life, I already planned everything. But when he left me, my world just... collapsed.