• Bts Angst •

「 jin 」

When they reached the hospital, jin was already pouring his eyes out. He was still in confusion. But one thing was definitely clear inside his mind "it's my fucking fault."he cursed under his breath as he waits for her in the emergency room.

He felt guilt rushing and building up inside of him. He won't ever forgive himself ever for this. He was so fucking stupid. He knew he had to understand her point of view but it just pained him with the thought that y/n would hate his friend.

But then again,

He had to understand her.

While waiting his phone was suddenly ringing. Startled he placed a hand on his chest before inhaling and exhaling deeply before once again cursing under his breath.

Jisoo was calling

"Hi jinnieee~"jin's eyebrows furrowed "is you're wife with you?"jin was still confused by her question but nevertheless answered "no she's actual—"then he got cut off with a laugh "oh that's great!that means we could finally talk aloneee~"she says with a hint of seductiveness in her voice.

"Jinnie, you love me right?"

Jin frowned

Y/n's words from earlier suddenly popped up inside his mind.

"y-yes..but as a frien—"

"Then date me."

Jin then pulled his phone away from his ear and immediately ended the call. He was fucking pissed off. Y/n was definitely right. And now he ben felt more guiltier. The reason why he ended the call is because he knew where it will possibly lead on to. Jisoo would probably flirt with him even more.

And jin on the other hand wasn't interested in any of that. Right now he was just worried about y/n. And as if on cue someone was walking towards him. It was the doctor.

"You're her?"the doctor asked "husband."jin answered with a small smile as he stands up before shaking the doctor's hand then the doctor sighs "she's okay."and that made jin's heart finally beat at ease.

"But unfortunately the baby didn't made it."

Jin furrowed his eyebrows "huh?b-baby?"he asked and the doctor nodded "I'm so sorry for your loss. You're wife here had too much blood loss and—" the doctor continues to explain what was happening as jin proceeded tk gather all of the information he was getting but all in all he was confused as fuck.

Y/n is pregnant?

"—You're wife i suppose was two weeks pregnant."the doctor said with a sad smile "c-can i go see her?"he stuttered but the doctor didn't mind it at all and gave him a nod "yes, you can."

Jin wiped his tears away and took a deep breath before letting out a shaky sigh. He was now heading to y/n's hospital room. He was nervous as hell. He couldn't just believe everything that was happening since everything was happening so fast.

Jin was now standing infront of the door of the room. He takes a deep breath once again before finally grabbing a hold of the door knob and twisting it. Then he slowly opens it. And what he saw broke his heart.

His tears came back once again and continued to escape from his eyes. He cries again. He closed the door and walked towards beside his wife.

He then sits down.

"Y/n-nie,"he sobs as he holds her hand and kissing it before sobbing again "I'm so s-sorry."he cries as he shakes his head, he just couldn't believe it. "I'm so so so sorry."he sniffed and sobbed as more tears poured out once he realised once again that she had a miscarriage because of him.

"b-because of me..I'm so fucking stupid—y-y/n i-"he then opened his eyes when he feels alot of moving and shifting then another hand on his head "jin"she softly calls.

He lifted his head up to meet y/n's glistening eyes "t-the baby..d-didn't made it."he quietly said before hugging her as he cries harder. Y/n on the other hand was crying quietly.

She closed her eyes and lets out tiny sobs out from her mouth. "I'm so sorry, this is all my fault—if only i s-should've believed you t-then—then we-"y/n opened her eyes and cupped both of his cheeks.

"Don't cry..it's.."she couldn't say it..it's not alright.

Everything is not fine.

They just lost their baby.

"None of this is your fault. I know you didn't mean to do that."jin shakes his head and continued to cry as he apologises non stop "i-I'm a..bad person."he cries

Y/n lifted his head up again "everything is going to be fine."jin shakes his head once again "I won't leave you."she said with a smile "y-you won't?"he sniffed and then she shook her head "no I won't.."

"But i-i'm a bad person..i kil-"y/n cuts him off by a short sweet kiss on the lips "maybe god has other plans for us..things will turn out great eventually in the end..but i can reassure you one thing, that I won't leave you no matter what happens. Things maybe rough now but we'll somehow get through this."

Jin smiles and hugs her once again.

"I should be the one comforting you."

Y/n shook her head and chuckled "you're a cry baby."y/n says before leaning back on her bed "so are you."jin says before planting a kiss on her forehead.

"I know i made a stupid mistake. I'm so sorry, but please..let me..make it up to you some how..you know how much i love you y/n, and God knows too. I know I haven't been a great husband but I'll stay..no matter what. You may forgive me someday for what I've done, but i myself..won't be able to forgive me for my actions."jin sighs and gives her a small smile.

"I'm sorry y/n."once again, tears filled up his eyes which were so close to falling. "I'll make it up to you, i promise. And i'll do my best to be the man i promised I'll be."

Y/n smiled with tears breaming in her eyes. And in her eyes jin could clearly see how much she was hurting. Being together for so long really makes you see and realise alot of things.

And in that night, jin stayed. The night continued where y/n was crying non stop. The both of them couldn't accept the fact that she had a miscarriage and they had to let their feelings out somehow.

So they stayed by eachother's side and comforted one another. Whispering nothing but sweet things in each other's ears, holding hands, and again..comforting each other.

"I love you y/n."jin intertwined his hands with hers and kissed it.

"I love you too jin."

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