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Jungkook- If I Can't Have You

You know when you really like someone and you can't have them for any reason? That reason could be that they're not single, or that they aren't in the same friendship group.

Or it could be because they don't know who you are or that you don't exist.

I guess you can kinda tell which one is my reasoning.

I'm in high school and there's this guy. This guy is like no other; he's smart, funny and good at everything. And the icing on the cake is that he's extremely good looking. But, he doesn't know I exist, is that a bad thing? Yes and no.

Yes because I want to be with him. I want him to call me his. I want him to give me random backhugs and kisses. I want him to call me beautiful out of nowhere or when I'm feeling insecure.

No because I'm not very good at showing my emotions. My last relationship (shocking right?) was broken up due to me not being able to express my 'love' for him. Is it because I didn't love him? Not like I love Him?

When I see him from accross the hallway, my heart skips a beat as the butterflies in my stomach take over. My head gets dizzy, but not much for me to get bothered by it. His smile is contagious, but only to me, as if I'm the only one being attacked by his bunny smile. Is it normal for a 16 year old to feel this way about a stranger? I mean, how do I feel this in love with someone I've never even met?

I close my locker and grab my headphones, putting them in my ears as I walk out of school and to my bus. I sit down just as Elvis Presley's I Can't Help Falling In Love With You starts playing.

Wise men say
Only fools rush in
But I can't help falling in love with you

I guess you can say I'm just a fool. I know I am. Being in love with a guy who literally can have any girl. I know that eventually, this love will hurt me and break my heart, but, doesn't love do that anyway?

Have you ever realised how love hurts everyone? So why is it such a huge deal when my non existent love hurts me? Even I know that answer

Because I love him

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I'm currently on my way home, wondering if I should die alone or with 10 cats who will eventually eat my body after I die anyway. Its true, look it up. Anyways, I was just thinking about Jungkook and the way he is with girls. He's shy yet he gets all the girls to swoon over him. There's a reason why he's the golden maknae. He's good at everything. Sports, dance, singing, cooking and school. ALL the girls like him, he has the whole population of girls swooning over him.

Even though it seems like he loves it, I can't help but feel bad for him. Everyday he's harassed by girls, especially the popular girls who wear a sh!t ton of makeup and wear their skirts up to their asses. Personally I have no respect for those girls. I'm not one to judge but from my perspective, they seem like hoes. I feel bad for him because he's the youngest and apparently, according to rumours, he's the most innocent one out of his group, so he must feel extremely uncomfortable when they try to gain his attention by acting sexy.

As much as I'd love to get him to notice me, I'd never go that far, I'd never change myself for a man. Even though I love him, I will always stay true to myself; which seems to be the problem.

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I snap out of my thoughts as the bus reaches my stop, I pack my things in my backpack and get out. Now I know this is cliché but I do live in a rough neighbourhood. My family don't have much money so we have no choice, so I'm no stranger to seeing drunk men and women walking around being aggressive and violent, but it's never happened to me until now.

I'm walking over to my gate when a bony, cold hand grabs my wrist violently

"Give me your money b!tch so I can buy some soju!" the women yelled into my ear. I look at her in fear, she has blonde hair and dialated pupils, accentuating the crazy in her eyes.

I shakily grab the money from out of my skirt pocket and give it to the women. I try to open the rusted gate as quickly as possible as she recounts the money as she gets forgetting her place.

"yah! There isn't enough here to buy soju! Give me your most expensive things!"

This time, I ignore her. The only thing I have on me that's expensive is my phone, and my father worked hard to get me that.

Rage fueled her eyes as she grabbed my upper arms tightly and turned me around, her long ugly ass nails digging in, drawing blood. She starts shaking me harshly and raises her hand to slap me. I close my eyes and wait for the impact

But I feel nothing.

I open my eyes to see someone has grabbed onto her wrist. My eyes travelled to that person. I gasp

Jungkook

He lets go of the lady and looked at her "I suggest you give this young girl her money back.... Mom"

I look at him in utter shock, his mom's an alcoholic? An aggressive one at that too?

She lets go and gives me my money back, I looked over at jungkook who is looking at me in concern

"are you okay? I'm sorry about her, she needs desperate help"

I look at him and blush "oh its okay, thank you for saving me"

He smiled as he looked at the logo on my blazer "hey we go to the same school! How come I've never seen you around before?"

Wow. That hurt, but that's reality. Of course he's never noticed me. I'm a nobody in a sea of populars. Where society is literally like it is in the movies: you're not pretty so you can't be popular. You're nerdy so you can't hang with us.

And that's why Jungkook has never seen me around

"yeah, I'm very quiet and kept to myself... I'm not that special"

And that's why I can't have Jungkook

Everything means nothing if I can't have you

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Hey everyone! It took me ages to write this, but the moral of the story is that you're just as important and relevant as the popular people in your school. Be the change in your school, be heard.

Also, advice: Love is a strong word, don't throw it around and use it instead of 'like', that's kinda what I was getting at in this one shot, she says she loves him, she doesn't, she thinks she does, she's blinded by love

Anyways, until next time!

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