A lot has happened..... I've had so many arguments with R, so many moments when I just wanted to end it. It's Christmas, but I don't feel excited at all. All I feel now is terror and fear. I'm so scared R will tell my secret. I was crying a couple of days ago because I was so afraid. I'm sick of it. As soon as all my story's are finished, I'm done. I'll leave. I can't wait.
