Love The Way You Lie

14: FIX YOU

"Well, you called mine!" Richard insists as he points to Adele.

You wince because you're sure you're going to get put in the middle of all of this shit.

Apparently, Derek snitched to Adele that Richard was sick and he's angry about Webber calling you out of the blue.

You're happy to see Richard Webber is doing better, because he's probably the only person who actually still believes in you (in a professional matter, though Miranda Bailey seemed also proud...).

Derek threatens that he's not discharging Richard without the support of Adele.

Derek threatens a lot of things, though apparently when it's in a medical way, nobody finds it scary just a little smug and potentially condescending...

You think it's ridiculous he's projecting the opposite solution to their fucked-up marriage than he is to yours-and-his own, but it's Derek, after all, and even Richard and Adele agree with him.

You walk in the room and compliment Adele Webber, and she smiles at you.

You're happy to see Adele Webber on this little trip, because you feel like you two are old friends.

You know Derek is probably going to get mad at you for that but you don't want to ice Adele out.

Adele says, "I told Richard you and Derek would be getting back together."

You realize that Adele wants you to be happy and she doesn't know that you secretly want the very opposite of what you implied when you asked her...

Derek says, "Addison and I are over... practically divorced", and that "adultery is enough to end it," but you know that he's not going to actually 'end it,' he's just putting on a show for Richard and also Adele.

If Derek would just end it you wouldn't be in this mess...

You leave the room then, and you can still hear Adele tell Derek to "give her [aka you] a chance.

As Derek leaves the room right behind you, he tells Adele to "keep him in line". You can see through the glass that Richard doesn't look happy about this.

You feel bad for both Adele and Richard and whoever the other woman in THEIR marriage is, but you're not sure you can take on any more troubles when you have so many of those on your own...

You think it's pretty ironic that Derek is telling a woman to keep a man in line when he feels the damn opposite about himself towards both you AND Meredith.

But again, you pretend you didn't hear any of that as you walk far away from all of it as you possibly can.

You always run. You wonder if Meredith is also a runner. You should probably stop thinking so much about Meredith...

You watch the Grey girl all day from a distance.

She's on a case with Miranda Bailey with a bowel obstruction of a man who...

Well, the patient man, he needed surgery, and you don't want to think about the rest of those dolls' (heads?!).

You see Meredith holding the films with her delicate fingers from the hallway and you try not to picture those soft hands over your skin.

You watch her staring at Derek even after she's left him or not left him, or talking about plumbing fixtures with him this morning and you realize you probably looked, still look, will always look at your husband the very same way.

Meredith stares at Derek over her intern friend's shoulder the same way that you did over Sam and Naomi's shoulder for the longest time and she has the same fascinated, curious, slightly nervous look that you always had when you bought into his intrigue.