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"I had Sam, he's an Avenger like the rest of you and could've protected me if I needed it." I argued.

"There's only one of him, you could've had six of us as back up if you had just waited like I told you to! And I bet you two didn't even stay together whilst you were searching did you?" He asked coldly.

"No but it d-" I started but Tony cut me off.

"And what would have happened if something had happened to you? Sam wouldn't have been able to stop it because he wasn't with you!" Tony yelled.

"But nothing happened and we got Clint back, that's all that matters!" I yelled back.

"I bet you've fallen straight back into his lap too haven't you." Tony said.

"It's none of your business what I have and haven't done." I argued.

"It does though Abi, because who was the one who stayed up with you countless nights to help you search for Clint or to give you someone to talk to and a shoulder to cry on at 3am when you were sobbing. That would be me! I was there for you through it all and I saw how badly it hurt you and what it did to you, but now you've just let him back in without even batting an eyelid. What's going to happen if and when he does this again? Because your actions are just telling him that what he has done isn't an issue, you can't act like it didn't have an effect on you just because he's back, he needs to know what he did!" Tony yelled and a few seconds later I heard one of the twins crying.

"Why can't you just be happy for me?" I asked before walking off to the nursery.

I lifted Axel out of his crib and fed him before laying him back down once he had dozed off again, but no matter what I did I just couldn't shake Tony's words from my head. I made my way back into my room and got changed into my pyjamas before crawling into bed, it was already 10:30pm and I was exhausted. After what felt like only a couple of minutes sleep, I was woken by yelling coming from the hall, I glanced over at my alarm clock and when it saw it was 2am I groaned; Clint was back and it was probably him and Tony arguing. I climbed out of bed and opened my door, they weren't in the hall but it sounded like they were because they were being so loud, I made my way to the living room where I found the two of them yelling and Sam ready to intervene if needed.

"Do you two fucking mind? There are two babies sleeping just down the hall and if you carry on then they're going to wake up." I hissed angrily, just loud enough for them to hear me over their yelling.

"Sorry." They both said sheepishly.

"Now if the two of you are finished, I think that we should all go to bed." I said harshly.

"You're a prick Barton, she deserves better than you." Tony spat before heading for the elevator.

Clint was about to say something back but I gave him a look and he quickly shut his mouth again, I was too tired to be dealing with these two idiots arguing.

"Night guys." Sam said before disappearing into what used to be Bruce's room.

Bruce struggled to sleep because the twins constantly woke him up with their crying, so when it was decided that Sam would move in Bruce was more than happy to give up his room and move to a different floor. It also meant that Sam and Steve could go on their morning runs without disturbing anyone else as their rooms were right next door to each other, and they're both really heavy sleepers so they sleep through the twins' crying most of the time.

"I'm sorry." Clint said as we walked into our room.

"For what?" I asked, confusion lacing my voice.

"Stark can be a real asshole sometimes but some of the things he said when we were arguing really made me open my eyes and realise that leaving was the worst possible thing I could've done. Did you really stay up most nights crying when I was gone?" He asked softly.

"That son of a bitch." I breathed.

"I'll take that as a yes then." He said sadly.

I just sat down on the edge of the bed and dragged a hand over my face, maybe Tony was right about what he said earlier?

"Yeah, my nights were mostly filled with searching for you or crying myself to sleep at 2 or 3am because I missed you and just wanted you back. You leaving really hurt me and it really took it's toll on me, but when I saw you in Massachusetts the big speech I had planned to yell at you just went out of the window and I was so happy to see you. All that went through my head was that I needed to get you back because, yeah you cheating on me hurt like a fucking bitch but I could get past that but not having you by my side killed me. I didn't want the twins growing up without a dad, I know what it's like not to have your parents around and I want better than that for our kids, I want them to have the life I never did." I said, a few tears rolling down my cheeks.

"I promise, from now on, I'm not going anywhere and I'm going to be here for you and the twins because it's where I belong. Being away just made me more mad and upset because on top of the anger I felt towards myself for what I did to you, I also missed you guys more than anything and you were always on my mind. You've done an amazing job raising our children but you shouldn't have had to do that alone, I know you had the others but I wasn't here like I should have been. I will be here for all three of you from now on though and nothing in this world could make me leave again, I'm not going to make the same mistake twice." He promised.

"I don't know if Tony said it to you too, but he told me that I shouldn't be letting you back in so easily and I know that I shouldn't but I just can't help it. Being away from you for so long really hurt and I missed you so much, I'm not going to waste time giving you the cold shoulder so you know what you did because I don't want to waste our time together." I said with a sigh.

"Yeah, he told me that he's thinks you're an idiot for letting me back so easily but I told him that I know I shouldn't have left; it was a stupid decision. I can't go back and change my actions, I can only promise that I won't make the same mistake twice and thank you for coming to find me. I wanted to come back the second I left but I just... I just couldn't bring myself to do it, I wasn't sure if you still wanted me..." He trailed off.

"Clint I will always want you, no matter what stupid shit you've done or how badly you've fucked up, because we all make mistakes. You are the first guy I have ever truly loved, the first guy that has made me feel special, the first guy I can actually see a future with; you're a lot of my firsts and I wouldn't change that for the world. I love you and I always will." I said softly, pressing my lips to his.

"I love you, more than you'll ever know." He mumbled against my lips.

"Come on, let's go to bed, I'm exhausted." I said and he chuckled.

I climbed straight into bed as I was already in my pyjamas, Clint stripped down into just his boxers before climbing in beside me and I fell asleep in the arms of the guy I love.