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I twisted the ring in my thumb and forefinger as I thought about what our future could look like, as long as he doesn't do anything else then I think we can work. Some people might call me crazy, but if they knew what I felt for Clint then they would agree with me and encourage me to work it out because this type of love isn't something that should be given up on so easily.

"I'm going to miss you so much, the last 4 weeks have been amazing and I still have so much making up to do but don't worry; as soon as you come back to Manhattan I'm going to fix this. I'm going to fix us." He promised.

"I... I'm going to miss you too." I said truthfully.

He caught me off guard as he wrapped his arms around me, I buried my head into his chest and wrapped my arms around him as I inhaled deeply to take in Clint's smell so that I wouldn't forget it over the next few weeks.

"I love you, so much." He mumbled into my hair as he kissed the top of my head.

There was a pause as I tried to decide what to say next, I knew what I wanted to say but I also didn't want to give him the wrong idea.

"I love you too." I whispered, my voice barely audible.

But I knew he heard me when he tightened his grip on me and let out a relieved sigh, but I was so focused on him that I didn't hear the truck pull up behind me. We said our goodbyes and Clint climbed into Tony's sports car, reluctantly driving off as I continued to wave until he was out of sight.

"You're an idiot." A voice said from behind me, making me jump six foot up in the air.

I turned to see Chloe stood there, her arms crossed as she leant against her truck and shook her head at me.

"I know." I groaned as I walked towards the house.

We both dropped down onto the couch and I let out a sigh, knowing I probably shouldn't have told Clint that I loved him but at the same time I didn't regret it.

"You and Clint really need to work things out, I-" I started saying but she cut me off.

"The only thing I'll be working out with him is his face with my fist, he treated you like crap Abi and you're letting him get away with it!" Chloe said, raising her voice a little.

"I'm not letting him get away with it, if I was then I'd have jumped straight back into his arms but I am making him work for it, he needs to build up my trust again. I'm not mad at him, if that's what you mean by letting him get away with it, but I can't be mad at him for long because I love him too much. I love him so much it hurts Chloe and every time I look at him all I see is him and that other woman, do you even understand what that feels like? It feels like my heart is being ripped out, torn into tiny pieces and stamped on repeatedly, it feels like a kick in the stomach every time I look at him because it makes me feel like I'm not good enough for him, and maybe I'm not but you will never find anyone who loves and adores that man as much as I do." I said sadly, a few tears rolling down my cheeks.

"Don't talk like that! You are good enough for him, it's him who doesn't deserve you Abi, especially after what he's done but we need to stop talking about this because it's upsetting you and it's upsetting me. Now come on, get your butt up and go get ready, we need to go and see the twins." She said with a loving smile as she thought about the twins; she absolutely adored the two newest members of her family.

I quickly got changed and followed Chloe out to her truck, climbing into the passengers seat as she hopped into the drivers seat and we set off for the hospital.

"Mom and dad were wondering when they can come and meet the twins?" Chloe asked.

"Are they doing anything today?" I asked quickly.

"Not that I know of." She said.

"Well I'll call them now and tell them to meet us at the hospital." I said with a smile.

I called Chloe's mom and she said that they would meet us at the hospital in 20 minutes, when we got there we had to wait for a few minutes but when they finally arrived I lead them all down to the NICU. We washed our hands and arms before going inside, when we walked over to the twins Martha gasped as she covered her heart with her hand.

"They're so small." She whispered sadly.

"They were much smaller when they were born, but they've grown a lot and they're little fighters, they doctors have said they are making better progress than most babies born as early as them which is a good sign." I said, smiling as I looked between my two beautiful babies.

I had promised Clint I would video call him every time I came here but I didn't want to this time as I knew he would be driving and I didn't want to cause him to crash. The thought of anything bad happening to him mad my stomach flip and my heart ache, I don't think I could handle another situation like what happened before when he was in the coma and if something worse happened, well I don't even know what I'd do. I was pulled from my thoughts when Robert started talking.

"When can you take these two home?" He asked as he stroked Axel's head through the side of the incubator.

"As long as there are no problems, we should be able to take them home in around 12 weeks as far as I know." I said with a smile, imagining taking them back to the farm and the tower in Manhattan.

"Where is home though?" Chloe asked sceptically and Martha stepped in before I could say anything.

"Chloe, not now." She said disapprovingly.

"Honestly Chlo, I really don't know." I said with a sigh.

"It's none of our business Chloe, it's for Abi and Clint to decide." Martha said, although she didn't look too happy when she said Clint's name.

Chloe's question sparked something inside of me, was it worry maybe? Where were we going to take them? The tower doesn't have enough space for us without having to make some major changes and I don't expect them to do anything like that. The farm is more than big enough but at the same time it's so far from the team in Manhattan and it meant Clint couldn't be around all the time. I have no idea what I'm going to do...