Next to a very messy sketch of two different eyes, Jaemin rants about his decision.
Hello sketchbook,
I never want to go to that cafe again. I never want to interfere with Renjun and Jeno's relationship again. I don't want them to see me, because they need to stay together and be happy and get married and raise their children up in their shared cafe that they'll both own.
Who am I? A sleep deprived fashion nerd with no future, because my career path is just as undependable as my mother told me. I have no right to bust into Jeno and Renjun's life, that they are fully satisfied with, and cause them trouble.
Today, I had the nerve to watch the two kiss inside their car. Jeno accidentally made eye contact with me, and i was selfish enough to not look away for the longest time.
What is wrong with me? I just want to crawl into my bed and never come out of my stupid apartment again.
With these things on my mind, I'm going to have a little bit to drink and try to focus on my schoolwork instead. I feel overwhelmed, and outside of these little letters I will force myself to quell everything I feel.
Hopefully you're doing better than me, sketchbook. Good night.
-N.J.M.
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Fanfiction"hello sketchbook" "gosh, i'm totally whipped for lee jeno and huang renjun" or in which jaemin admires the coffee shop couple from (not) very far away and documents his feelings in his sketchbook @obsessedpotato st' [05/14/2020] fin' [07/29/2020]
