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i think i deserve it, the very cold treatment of namjoon and hoseok. seokjin hyung isn't even talking to me and taehyung seems so busy with jeongguk. i wanna talk but i don't want to be a bothersome to them. i wanna speak with them to cry on their shoulders, to tell them i am hurting, to be able to laugh with them. but i can't i am sure they're busy. the overthinking kills me. if they want me to talk, or i am not approachable so they're setting their distance, if they're mad at me, if they're annoyed that i am not talking. it's bugging me day by day but i chose to keep silent. to disconnect myself from any communication even to my family.

jimin's parents, they're facing a huge crisis because of their company. the amount of death threats doubling and i am scared for jimin. i wanna protect him but i don't wanna make him feel like strangled within my demands. i don't wanna make him feel weird to the sudden closure. no i won't like that.

another day passes, my eyes stings so bad, maybe sleeping will reduce the pain, sleeping makes me forget everything...

-myg