I'm Hurting (H2OVanoss)/BBS (In Progress)

Why Don't You Hate Me?

"Jon, you know you messed up big time right? More than before." Marcel mentions.

"Yes, I know." I mutter

David sighs, " Jonathan, you snuck out in the middle of the night and let Sydney kiss you. Not to mention, you told all of us, but not the person who would care the most. I'm starting to think you're the one that's going insane."

"I know, David. I f*cked up. Real bad. But it's not like I wanted her to kiss me, she just did it. My biggest concern right now-" I hiss in pain, "is that Evan doesn't try to kill himself. I need to fix this."

"No duh, genius. What you need to do is stop making promises that you can't keep." Arlan points out.

"I know, I know." I mumble as I hop off of the counter. We all walk out and everyone stares at us as we separate and walk to our next classes.

As soon as the first period ended, I dashed to the next class. I haven't seen Evan in the halls or at his locker. He might still be here though. As I walk into the next class, I realize that I'm the first person here. I sit down and watch as Julian's friends pile in, and then Sydney's friends, and then mine. They come in like they're security guards. A few walk in at one time and sit at their desks, and then a few more come in, but it looks like they're hiding something. Or someone. That's exactly what it is, because when they all go to sit in their seats, Evan comes out from in between them. They all sit in their seats --including Evan-- and act like nothing is happening between us. I watch as Evan runs his hand through his hair. I love when he does that. He catches me staring at him and he stares back.

"Hey" I mumble, "I'm sorry"

He looks away without showing any emotion as the teacher walks in and starts the lesson.

Time Skip

We sit at the lunch table like usual. Evan is avoiding me and he hasn't showed any sign of happiness. I can tell he's not mad, he's just... nonchalant.

"Guys, we need to talk about this." Craig says

"We need more time. We'll do it after school, but this is not okay. Ev, are you mentally stable?" Brian asks with concern.

"Do I look mentally stable?" Evan responds softly as he glances over to Brian.

Brian sighs, "You're not going to do anything....worth regretting...right?" He asks cautiously

"I wouldn't regret it." Evan mumbles, "but on a serious note, I just need space-"

"No, because everytime we give one of you "space" you go do something risky." Ryan states.

"I need to think, okay?" Evan mutters.

"Don't think too much..." Luke says quietly

"Why?" Evan asks innocently

"Sometimes when you overthink, your mind makes you go crazy." Luke mentions

"I know."

"So don't overthink." Luke orders. Evan nods and looks away. I watch as his eyes drift to Sydney's group of friends. I feel a wave of sadness wash over him.

I reach across the table and grab his hands as his eyes meet mine.

"Evan, I can explain." I plead. He glances between our hands and the couple of people who began to look in our direction.

"Jonathan they're watching-"

"I don't care, I need to explain before things get confused." I urge

"Jonathan I understand, but-"

"Then let's leave." I plead. He glances at some of the people watching, then at our friends watching, then back to me.