The Nerd's Big Revenge

Kabanata 53: Moment

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"It's been a very long time since the last time we've met"

I don't know how and what to react from it. I feel so embarassed knowing my instinct isn't correct and I still can't stop myself from having the feeling of being ashamed.

How come that she became like this without knowing that this pretty woman infront of me is his sister? This isn't a good way of treating a woman like this.

Nilaro laro ko ang buhangin na inaapakan ko ngayon habang nakayuko at katabi ang kapatid ni Xander. Tanging simoy ng hangin at hampas ng alon ang nagbibigay ng atraksyon sa akin maliban sa mga taong dumadaan. Lumabas kase kami ni Lusia dahil sa niyaya niya ako wala akong rason para tumanggi.

"I-i'm sorry I didn't—"I didn't able to continue my words when I heard her laughs. Napatingin ako sakanya at napagalaman kong nakatingin na rin siya sa akin.

"You find it awkward don't you?"Hindi na ako nagatubiling tumango para mabigyan ng sagot ang tanong niya. I saw her smile and I'm gay for it.  She's pretty. "Ikaw rin sobrang iba mo na"

I paused. Yung ngisi ko sa ngiti niya nawala. Yung pagkakawindang ko sa ganda niya nawala. Lahat ng mood ko nagbago. Her words gave too much meaning to me. Hindi ko alam kung bakit pero sobrang tama ka sa sasabihin niya.

Ayokong bigyan ng double meaning yung mga pinaparating niya. Her words can destroy your mood anytime. A straightforward woman of all time. Parang normal sa pananaw ng iba pero para sa sarili mo hindi. Hindi normal as in hindi.

Napagtanto ko nalang na nagkakatitigan kaming dalawa. I dont have any reaction with her words sadyang tingin lang ang nagagawa ko pero her face is giving me her sweetest smile yet I know there is something that could gave me hint na connected sa sinabi niya.

I cleared my throat. Kumurap kurap ako at tumingin sa kawalan trying to ease all the awkwardness invading through my veins. This is the most crazy and awkward moment of my life. God, you must mark this one.

Napatingin ako ng marinig ko siya. I heard how she sighed and smile a bit again.

"Alam mo. There are times na nago-grow ang mga tao. Sometimes their atittude, their physical appearance or their standard in this society either their own beliefs. But those kind of glow up isn't the reason for you not to recognize a person. Kahit sabihin mong hindi mo na kilala yung tao. There are times na yung taong yun nasubukan niya na ring mag-doubt sa sarili niya bago yung iba"aniya kasabay ng pag-tingin sa kawalan.

"Growing isn't about what you can be in the future for  others. Growing is about what can you see yourself as a better version. Inshort, we dont grow for others. We grow for ourselves."

We grow for ourselves

We grow for ourselves

We grow for ourselves

Napatingin ako sa kanya. Nakatingin lang siya sa kawalan. Hindi ko alam kung bakit niya yun sinasabi pero alam kong para sa akin yun and her words suits that to me so well, I can't deny the fact na tamang tama ako sa sinabi niya.

I know I grown up already. From a nerd being a beautiful and elegant woman with a fearless mindset. A woman who cannot be defeated by anyone. A woman who has everyone's respect. And most of all, Almost a perfect woman but I know I feel lack of things.