My box
has been opened.
He opened it.
Again.
The fear of him
crawling back into my life,
the fear that I can't
trust my family anymore,
the fear that you will abandon me too,
are weighing heavily on me.
I have so many secrets
in my head,
so many twisted
fears within me.
I am so afraid
to share any of them
to anyone.
My family has hurt me,
using the same techniques
(unintentionally)
he used to hurt me.
I don't want their sympathy,
and their sorrys for what has happened
I want to be treated
the same.
I'm so afraid to share
them with you.
When I painted my thoughts
along my body,
sharing the words
that dig deep into my skin,
he hurt me.
He slowly abandoned me
over a half a year,
cutting me up
into tiny pieces,
so I was not strong
enough to fight him.
I am afraid
that if I share
those thoughts and words
that you will do the same.
I don't have any confidantes
anymore,
because of him.
Because of the lies,
the pain,
and the scar
which will forever be
etched across my chest.
I don't know
anymore to convey
the pain which lays
deep inside of me.
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Shadows Into Light
PoetryA collection of my poems which are a mix between sad and depressing to hopeful and bright, but all speak the truth. A poetry collection since 2015. ------ ✯ = featured on a poetry podcast, link available on poem