Time•EDxEC~Ethma•

twenty two

"Get fucking showered now" he ordered, storming into her room, as she moped sadly on her bed.

Emma had been thinking of everything she did for Ethan. He was her first love. She couldn't help but think back to a couple weeks ago, when he took her virginity.

Maybe that's all he ever wanted from me, she thought, her tears began to well, however she stopped herself and turned her attention to the boy who just entered the room.

"Hello! Earth to Emma!" He said, sarcastically, clicking his fingers in front of her face, "go shower"
"Why?" She groaned, burying her head into the pillow beneath her, until a strong arm clasped on to hers, pulling her up.
"You're going to see my brother" he responded.

After a while of persuasion from Grayson, Emma had finally got into the shower. She turned the heat on full, hoping that the scorching water would ease the anxiety riddled through her body.

The steam passed over her goosebumps, easing them slightly, and leaving hot burnt marks over her shoulders. Each drop comforted her a little more, making her feel safe in there.

However, with a shout from Grayson telling her to 'hurry the fuck up' made her face drop, and shoulders sink, knowing that it was time to face her demons once again.

She got out, and quickly dressed, knowing that Grayson was waiting downstairs for her. By the time she was done, the sun was setting and it was beginning to get dark.

Now, they had just arrived at the twins house, and her nerves were beginning to get worse. All the tension that was scolded away from the shower, had all come back, weighing on her shoulders like a ton of bricks, and practically making the floor swallow her whole.

"Emma, listen to me" Grayson demanded, snapping her out of her trance, "give up the fucking sad shit, my brothers a dick, and you're going to go in there and shout until you can't anymore"
"There's no point G" Emma sulked, her shoulders shrugging in defeat.
"You arent a little bitch that he's allowed to play, you're practically a sister to me, and I would beat his ass if I could, but we all know my mum would kill me" he laughed out, and Emma replied with a small giggle, knowing how Lisa would react to the boys fighting, "but I want you to go, and make sure he knows he can never hurt you again"
"Okay" she sighed, knowing she wouldn't win if arguing with him and unplugging her seatbelt and following his twin into the house.

Each step made her feel smaller, like each stone on the driveway were begging her to stop. Her feet carried on, though her mind said no, and once she entered the house, she knew it wasn't possible to go back.

All the anger, and all of the hurt he had caused her, rose to the surface, and rage took over pain as she stomped through the corridor to him room. She heard the hushed voices of Grayson and Lisa in the kitchen, and then the slam of the door to indicate that they left for Ethan and Emma's 'talk'.

Her shaky hands reached the doorknob, and flashbacks of the last time she was in this situation flooded her already drowned mind. She wasn't going to be that person anymore, she was not going to be vulnerable and instead, would be confident.

"Emma?" Ethan's shocked voice questioned, as she slammed the door open, and silenced his drumming.
"So you fucking dump me by text because you can't do this anymore?" She yelled, her veins popping out as a deep red covered her angered face.
"Emma don't" he warned, standing from the stool, and towering above her.
"No, you don't get to tell me what to do Ethan, because news flash, you dumped me. For no reason. I gave you my fucking everything, I loved you, and forgave you for everything, and you still continue to hurt me" Emma continued, her voice cracking as she hit her hands on his tough chest, repetitively.

Ethan's hands lifted to pull hers from his chest, in attempts to calm her down, but Emma hit them out of the way and continued.
"What made you want to hurt me so bad?" She screamed.
"I never wanted to hurt you" Ethan whispered, calmly, and Emma laughed right in his face.
"Bullshit. If you didn't want to hurt me, you never would have started to break me all those years back. None of it was real, we weren't ever real to you, you never really loved me. You're fucking incapable of love. Well, all but precious Meredith right?" She ranted.
"Don't bring her into this Em" He replied, with a rough voice.
"It's Emma" she corrected, "and it was always her, always about her. She was always in it, she was always it for you. I was never even in the fucking league to be with you, because she was winning by miles. It took you so long to realise that you're in love with her and ended up playing me completely"

Ethan held his tears back as he heard each voice break, and the eyes he loved so much tear up in complete heart break. Heart break that he caused.

Emma felt something coming up her throat, and she immediately ran to the bathroom, with Ethan close behind. She threw up in the toilet, and Ethan pulled her hair back as he knelt by the seat.

"No" Emma's weak voice rung out, as she grabbed some tissue and wiped her face.
"Are you okay?" He asked, his eyes wondering over her face.
"Leave me alone Ethan. You hurt me. You treated me like shit. You don't get to try and make up for it now." She silenced him, and he didn't reply after.

"So fuck you, Ethan Dolan. Fuck you, fuck her, and fuck whatever was us. Have a nice life" Emma walked off before he could stop her, and it was like the water was back on to her shoulders, and she felt more relaxed and relieved after that.

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