Jonah is the most loving person you will ever come across. He puts others before himself and cares for everyone. That's why I'm beyond happy to call him my boyfriend. Me and Jonah have known each other for around six months and it was love at first sight. We instantly caught feelings for each other and became a couple three weeks ago however one thing already is getting in the way of our relationship. And that is me. I am constantly in and out of hospital. I've told Jonah my grandfather is ill but today I've realised something. If I want our relationship to work I cant keep lying to him. I need to be honest.
"Jonah!" I shout from the top of the stairs but don't receive an answer. I head downstairs to see the boys messing around in the kitchen.
"Oh hey, Madi" Corbin smiles softly.
"Hey guys, ummm... Jonah can we talk?" I ask, leaning against the doorframe.
"Of course, two minutes guys" He leaves the kitchen and I lead him to the living room, closing the door behind us.
"Is everything okay babe?" He says, sitting down on the couch.
"I've got some explaining to do" I look down and play with my hands.
"Okay what is it" He takes a sip of his coffee and leans back into the cushions.
"Look Jonah, I'm sorry I'm telling you this now. I know I should've told you sooner but I was scared and I didn't want you to leave me"
"Madi, don't worry. Whatever it is, we'll work it out" He smiles reassuringly.
"I'm ill" I sigh.
"Okay, well we will take you to the doctor and have you checked out"
"No Jonah it's not like that. I've been ill since birth. I have cystic fibrosis and if you don't know what that is I'll explain. It is a genetic disease which affects your lungs. It makes you have poor growth, difficulty breathing and makes you cough up mucus. This disease can be fatal and now that I have reached the age of 21, I won't have long left. I'm so sorry that this is how and when I have to tell you." At this point, my tears are unstoppable.
"I-I don't know what to say" Jonah began to sob uncontrollably. He wraps his strong arms around me.
"I've got an operation next week. I'm going to be having a lung transplant, hopefully this will make me better" I cry into his shoulder.
"Hopefully baby, hopefully" He gently sways us back and forth.
"I think we should go tell the boys" Jonah pulls away wiping his eyes then nodding in agreement. We sit the boys down in the living room, we explain everything. The room is filled with sobs from everyone.
"I'm sorry guys" I choke out.
It has been six days since I told the boys about my illness, ever since they have been so careful around me, like I was a delicate flower. Today me and the boys are going to head down to the beach.
"Let's gooo!" Zach shouts getting into the car. Jonah drives us and within five minutes, we are there. I hop out of the car and the scent of the ocean hits me. I find the beach so calm and soothing, like it gets rid of all your problems. We race down to the sand and lay down our towels. We are greeted by some polite fans who ask to take pictures with us. After that, we all run into the sea. The water is cold yet cooling as the LA summer is crazy warm! We have water fights, swim, laugh and have the best day together. We finish our time at the beach by having ice cream and sitting on a random bench, staring into the distance.
"I want to let you guys know that I'm so so proud of you all. You've come so far. Zach, you have matured so much and are growing into an amazing respectful young man. Jack, I can not believe you are a dad, believe me you are going to be the best dad little Lav could ever ask for! Corbyn, you have always been the same goofy person since I first met you and please stay that way, you make so many people happy by doing so. Daniel, you are one of the most talented people I have ever met and I hope your music career brings big things for you, you truly deserve it. Jonah, thank you so much for being the kind soul you are, you have touched so many hearts, mine being one of them. Please never stop being you and I hope we can be together for as long as we live" I lick my ice cream and smile at all the boys, appreciating each and every single one of them.
It is now the 29th of January, 2020. The time is 9:45 and we are heading to the hospital for my surgery.
"I'm so scared" I rest my hand on top of Jonah's in the back seat of the car.
"Everything will be okay baby, I promise" He rests his head on top of mine.
Hand in hand, we walk into the hospital, the rest of Why Don't We following behind us.
"Hi I'm Madison Taylor. I've been booked in for surgery today at 10:00" I smile at the lady working behind reception.
"Hi Madi, please can you head to room 103. I hope your surgery goes well" She replies, smiling. We walk to the room and we're instantly greeted by a doctor.
"Hello Madi, please just lay down on this bed as I hook you up to our monitors and drip. This surgery will take approximately one hour" I lay in the bed as he explains everything. I nod my head. Before leaving I say goodbye to each boy. Lastly I say bye to Jonah.
"Goodbye gorgeous, I love you" He plants a gentle kiss on my lips.
"Goodbye Jonah, I love you too" I wave as the doctor pushes my bed out into the corridor then into the operating room. They inject anesthesia into my arm causing me to drift off seconds later.
Jonah's P.O.V
I have been waiting for twenty minutes now, scrolling through my phone when all of a sudden I see lots of doctors rushing around. A nurse walks out of the operating room and stands infront of me.
"Are you Jonah Marais?" She asks politely. I nod my head.
"I'm here to inform you of some terrible news. Madi has passed during her surgery, I am so sorry for your loss" Instantly I break down. The nurse leaves and all the boys surround me, crying. I felt my whole world stop turning. I was unable to catch my breath as uncontrollable sobs escaped from my lips. I let out a scream and fell to the floor. My knees hit the ground with a thud and my head sat in my hands. The only girl I ever loved had to leave so soon. Why? Is all I kept asking myself. My surroundings seemed to have disappeared and my brain is concentrating on Madi.
"Goodbye Jonah, I love you too" Are the only words I can hear. It's like I have a broken record in my head, and it's repeating all the words Madison ever said to me.
A/N
Hi everyone! I'm back! If you don't know who I am then let me introduce myself. I'm Sienna, I created this account 2 years ago but passed it on to Karla about a year ago. She has updated and keep this account running, so if your reading this Karla, thank you so much!
About an hour ago I was laid in bed scrolling through this book and reading some of my old work like 'Happier - Daniel Seavey' and 'Once A Cheater, Always A Cheater - Jonah Marais' I began thinking about writing again and how much I've missed it but I wanted this story to have a twist and the twist is, obviously, Madisons secret which is her illness. Then I began thinking why don't I try base it off something true, so I did.
My auntie was born with cystic fibrosis and lived a fun, rebellious life. At the age of 18, she passed away whilst having surgery, a lung transplant. We lost her on the 29th of January 1999. And even though I was not born then, I still like to look back on pictures of her and listen to story's about her from her sister, my other auntie. She was an amazing woman but unfortunately her life was taken too soon. It's nice too celebrate her life and remember her for the fun and quirky girl she was.
However I also take this as a opportunity and maybe you could too. If a member of your family has passed away take this as an opportunity to live your best life and have no regrets as they didn't get the chance you did to live out theirs. Live your dreams and never give up!
If you have read this far down then thank you so much for reading. I love you lots, you are beautiful and worth everything.
Goodbye, I hope you have an amazing day/night💕
-Sienna
