I've had a stressful week and I always feel down. I take a look at the gorgeous boy beside me sleeping. The boy of my dreams, Jack Avery. His freckles, beautiful eyes, amazing hair, lovely personality made me fall in love with him but sometimes I think...
What if I'm not good enough?
I let my feet touch the cold floor, sending a chill down my spine. Slowly, I trail my feet across the wooden floorboards and make my way to he balcony. I adore the night sky. The stars scattered across the large, dark empty space. The moon glistens, the stars twinkle, as I sit deep in thought.
Does Jack really love me?
He could do so much better...
Why did he pick me?
Your worthless, why would he love you...
I hate myself!
You should...
I have this conversation with myself all the time. I become surrounded by negative thoughts.
"Hey gorgeous" I hear a voice from behind me. Quickly, I look over my shoulder and see my boyfriend there.
"What's wrong?" He asks coming towards me.
"Nothing... I'm fine" I breath out, standing from my seat.
"No your not princess, what's the matter?" He pulls me into a tight hug.
"I just have a lot on my mind..." I reply.
"Baby girl, you can tell me" He kisses my forehead in need of a good answer.
"I'm not good enough for you..." I say it in almost a whisper, letting a tear roll down my cheek.
"I never was and I never will be..." I state.
"What?" He says in disbelief.
"Baby, don't ever doubt yourself! Your the best girlfriend I could ever ask for. I love you so much. If anything I'm not good enough for you. You shouldn't feel like this, Im sorry for making you think that. I love you too much, don't ever forget that!" He fingertips glide up and down my back soothingly.
"I love you too" I reply. He plants a kiss on my lips before picking me up and carrying me back to bed. Gently he lays me on the bed and covers my cold, skinny body with the quilt. He climbs in and wraps his arm protectively around my waist.
"Goodnight gorgeous" I feel his hot breath against my skin giving me goosebumps.
"Goodnight baby" I place my hands on his chest and fall asleep in his tight, loving embrace.
