wave of thoughts

t h e r e w a s y o u

there was me, there was you
we were friends , closely as i can remember,
but there's always boundary between you and me.
there was love. there was lust.
but there was never us.

you held me tight. you made me care.
you did things just to make me stare.
the way you slightly tilt your head when you talk,
or the way you did your coughing laugh,
i found myself in love.

i fell deeper more than i thought.
i have your flaws more than your perfections.
i have loved your words more than your action.
i have loved you so much to the point i'd break myself.

then, i knew sadness. i knew lonliness.
the thing is how can you be so broken,
when you love someone so much?
i knew i was in love with you,
but you make me feel so broken.
i knew i have found the one,
but only you didn't know you were.

epiphany struck me. i confessed and that's how things end,
it went straight down to tragedy.
i told you about my feelings and i told you hoe i want you so much.
but you speak in silence.
i didn't know silence can be painful.

you didn't love me.

there was me. breathe. there was you.
there were us. only that isn't love.
and the next thing i knee, you were gone.