𝐋𝐄𝐓𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐒

journal one; entry ten

"i think he's mad at me.

i don't want him to be.

because what if he leaves already.

we've barely gotten to know each other."

- jjk 190504

after the whole thing with jeongguk's leg taehyung left immediately and didn't talk to him. instead he went home, angry as ever. the boy just couldn't fathom the idea of hurting yourself, willingly at that. he didn't like the idea of the boy hurting himself. so he left. 

usually he would stay and comfort him but he just couldn't at the moment. knowing that he would've most likely yelled at him and made him feel worse, and right now he knew that wasn't what jeongguk needs. 

"he's mad at me. 

i just know he is. 

i thought things were getting better. 

but it seems they're getting worse. 

maybe if i weren't alive. 

stuff like this wouldn't happen." 

-jjk 190504 (2:00 AM)