Let me remind you
of the time that
I shoveled through my mistakes;
on my knees.
I've wandered lonely through my phases:
sensations
waves
and a couple of hurricanes.
Let me remind you
of when I looked you in the eye
and you bluffed my eyes with manipulation.
Let me remind you
that years pass and people wander;
mistakes become scars
relationships become burdens
homes become dry
and empty.
Let me remind you
the same way that you've reminded me
that my kindness was an advantage,
that my love was foolish
that my emotions were true
that my thoughts were pure,
I know my face said different.
My instinct was telling me to smile.
I was confused when I shouldn't have been.
I was murmuring my words when I should have been screaming.
I was keeping quiet when I should have been raging.
Crying.
Kicking.
Seeping.
Weeping.
Bleeding.
Seeking.
I've been screaming for too long.
But now the quiet waters have summoned me.
They've summoned back home.
I'm home. I was home.
I was loving those who were worthy of love, but not my time.
I encouraged myself to love
those who do not have time
for me
in their lives;
those who are always on the go,
those who want out,
those who have never considered me.
Those who are your closest friends,
but who are also strangers.
It seems like I've been living in a different realm.
Did I miss anything?
I think I only missed you.
Friend,
Let me remind you of the moment
when you reminded me
that I need to make my coffee a little stronger: a pupil widener
that I must insist on growing my ego a little bigger: a mind opener
that I shall set my emotions on "do not disturb" mode: a peace maker.
Friend,
Let me tell you that I have conquered life all at once
in the same rhythm
that my heart beats;
every millisecond is a chance that I take.
I found myself through people who took their last breaths,
I created opportunities where the gutter was only present.
I cried when I should have been praising every ounce of fiber in my body for courage.
And bravery.
And love.
I should have been grateful for those.
I shouldn't have been stuck on you.
You're just another spec in the wind.
Friend,
I want you to know
that I'm a limited woman, but I'm limitless within infinity,
that I'm a boundary-bound species, but I'm focused; I have dreams,
that I'm a vulnerable one, but try me once. My kindness reels over hatred.
Take a step back, my friend.
Take a step back and look into my eyes.
Let them remind you.
All you need to do is look. Into. My. Eyes.
You will find all the memories there.
Waiting for you. Perhaps, longing for you
begging for you
to save them
from hiding in a closet
in my head
that disposes memories
into forgotten thoughts
that need not any occupation
in the head of a poetess.
Friend, please
remind me to never
lend someone my trust.
It never ended well;
for you, anyways.
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