How I Became The Sea

Between Water and Blood

I watched my hair slowly disappear,
My crown was taken away.
I have been dismissed from my throne.

I went from sheer gowns of gold to pants that I felt were shackling my ankles to place.

I felt selected,
I felt abandoned,
but I mostly felt lost.

I had to swim between two rivers-
I wanted to save myself from falling into the forbidden city.

I looked at my people that lifted me up;
but I just witnessed shadows.

The silent wind was merely present.

I waited for what felt like a lifetime
I waited for what felt like an age that could build a family.

I waited for my family.

I longed for them.

I longed for their love.

I longed for that familiar embrace.

So, I swam into the river of thick blood, hoping that they would be waiting for me, too.

But I drowned within my grief and sorrow.

I felt;
I sensed the river swallow me whole,
While they sat in lawn chairs
Watching me struggle and lose my life
When all they did was kick back and dip their feet in the cool water
Away from me.