Jealous Is My Middle Name

{09} - kiss

Scott and I hugged for a really long time. That ended about 5 minutes ago. Now we're sitting on my bed. Not saying a word. Sitting in silence.

"Sooo.." Scott says awkwardly.

"Oh god... this is why I didn't say anything. I knew it would make things awkward!" I say. I stand up off my bed and put my hands on my head.

"No! No! It doesn't have to be awkward!" Scott says, standing up as well.

"How can it not be?" I ask.

"I-i don't know..." Scott stutters. "Let's just... Let's do what we normally do at sleepovers."

"Okay..." I reply.

"Okay. Well it's late so let's sleep?" Scott suggests. I nod my head. He lays down on my bed and I turn off the light.

"Um... should i-" I start.

"Stiles. Get in the bed." Scott says.

"Yeah okay." I reply. I lay down next to Scott.

"Look, I'm sorry If i made things awkward... I just needed to say something about it." Scott says.

"Hey don't worry about it. I'm actually glad you said something." I say. Scott and I turn to face eachother.

Jesus Christ he is so good looking. I can't believe it took me this long to come out and say it. But now that it's actually out I don't know what to do.

"Fuck it." Scott says.

"Wha-?" I start. Scott leans in with a hand on my cheek. He pulls me into a kiss. My eyes widen at first. I can't believe it. Scott McCall just kissed me! What am I doing!

I put my thoughts on hold and I shut my eyes and lean into the kiss. I put my hand on Scott's waist and pull myself closer to him.

Scott pulls away, leaving his forehead against mine.

"Why'd you do that?" I ask.

"I couldn't resist. I didn't want to wait any longer than I already have." Scott says. I can't help but smile with what he said.

"And how long have you waited?" I ask.

"I've waited since grade 7. The year we started high school." Scott answers.

"Oh Scotty. I've waited so much longer than you have." I respond.

"Really? How long?" Scott asks.

"Ever since we met. I always knew you were my best friend. I just didn't realise that I liked you more than that. Up until grade 4 I just thought that was how best friends thought about each other." I answer.

"When we met Theo..." Scott says.

"Exactly. I didn't like him like I liked you. And that's when I knew that I loved you. As the years went on I figured the feeling would just go away. But it didn't. If anything my feelings grew stronger." I say.

"Wow..." is all Scott can say.

"I'm sorry... that was a lot." I say.

"Hey, don't be sorry! It's fine. It's cute." Scott says.

"Okay... sorry..." I say.

"Dude. Stop saying sorry." Scott chuckles.

"Sorry! I mean- um... Okay I'll stop..?" I stutter. Stutter? What is wrong with me?! Why am I so nervous...

Scott leans in and kisses me again. He pulls away quickly though.

"You are so adorable Stiles." He says with a smile. I sit up on my bed. Scott stays laying down.

"What does this mean Scott?" I ask.

"What?" Scott responds.

"All this? What does it mean for us?" I ask again.

"Oh- um... I have no idea. What do you want it to mean?" Scott asks in response.

"I-i don't know... maybe we should just think about everything first." I say, laying back down next to Scott. "But for now, lets sleep. I'm tired." I close my eyes and wait for the darkness of sleep to take over.

After countless minutes of attempting to get sleep, I still can't. Scott had fell asleep a few minutes ago.

"Scott??" I loudly whisper.

"Mmh" Scott responds.

"Scott, I can't sleep..." I say. Scott flutters his eyes open.

"Well that's not good." He says. "Come here then." He wraps his arms around Me and holds me close to him. I lay my head on his chest and close my eyes. "Is that better?" He asks.

"Yes... thank you." I say quietly, dozing off to sleep. Scott brushes my hair with his fingers peacefully. "I-i love you Scotty..." I say slowly before dozing off to sleep completely.