Kissing the Monster (A Kim Namjoon Fanfic)

Chapter 4

The alarm clock I had set last night went off at 8 am and I couldn't help but groan at the thought of having to get out of bed. Today was the day that Namjoon and Alice would meet. Surprisingly, I was excited but nervousness was clearly evident. I peeled myself from the bed and headed to the connecting bathroom. I grabbed a makeup remover wipe and cleared my face from the previous day. My mind raced and my nose smelled bacon. Wait a second... Bacon? Was Joon cooking breakfast? I put makeup on as fast as I could and got dressed in blue jeans, a v-neck red tshirt, and a brown cardigan. It was a little cool today, at least that's what my weather app told me. I wasn't going to risk getting cold today and regretting every decision I ever made. Dramatic, my brain commented. 

As I ran downstairs, the smell of bacon grew and it made my eyes roll back in my head.  Standing at the doorway to the kitchen, I watched as Joon flipped pancakes, one almost dropping to the ground. He managed to catch it but also caught me staring at him.

"Good morning Jess! I hope you don't mind I cooked breakfast?" He looked a little worried, like I would get mad over pancakes and bacon! 

"Are you kidding? I'm just surprised the God of Destruction didn't burn down my house." I chuckled, causing him to bust out laughing.

He made my plate as I sat down at the table. Namjoon had already furnished the table with silverware and syrup. "Jin taught me a little how to cook even though he could hardly stand be being in the kitchen with him." It was my turn to laugh. I have to be honest, I could get used to this again. When we first were together, laughter was all we knew. We made each other laugh so much and it honestly felt amazing. I loved being around him and I found myself not being able to keep my hands off of him. Whether it was holding his hand, rubbing his back, or kissing his lips. I loved every single part of our relationship. Well... at the beginning anyways.

"Jess are you okay? You literally been sitting here for 3 minutes and haven't even started eating." I looked up from my long mile stare and my thoughts and right at him. He was right, he was almost finished eating and I hadn't even started.

"Sorry, my mind wondered off." I apologized and began eating. Oh god this was amazing. Obviously I moaned once the pancakes touched my mouth because Joon giggled like a little school girl.

"Well, I haven't heard that in a while.." he said looking away from me. I slapped his arm, smiling. He grabbed his arm, a fake "ouch" escaping his lips. Once I was finished eating, he grabbed both plates and put them in the sink. 

"I'll clean these when we get back."

"You better! Let's go cause it's going on 10 and knowing Alice, she'll start to worry about me." We headed for the door. I grabbed my purse and car keys, opening the door and gesturing Joon to go first so I could lock the door behind me. We got in my car and I headed towards my dads. 

"She worries about you?" Joon was curious. I didn't blame him. Most people would have been weirded out too. 

"Yeah can you believe that? She's four and worrying about me. Her mother. Sometimes it feels like she's the adult." I recalled all the times she acted more like an adult than myself. I couldn't help but miss her more. Every time she was away from me, I yearned for her to be back. Exactly the way I felt about Namjoon. 

"Just like her mom. Always worrying about other people and not herself." He gave me a small smile before turning back to the window. 

"Jess, I'm really nervous. What if she doesn't like me? She has all right to not even want to see me but it's really going to break my heart." A tear fell from his eye and I could feel my heart breaking for him. Like I said before, Namjoon was an amazing man and he still is. He made a huge mistake just like many other people in this world. Who would I be to keep his daughter from him? He wasn't a bad guy, he had no bad intentions. I knew she was going to love him just like I love him. There was no doubt in my mind.

"Don't worry. She'll love you."

"How do you know that?"

"Because I love you." Those words slipped out my mouth faster than I could shove them back in. He looked dumbfounded. He tried to find the right words to say but he eventually dropped the subject. I knew his confidence grew and I also knew he was going to hold that against me. Here we go...

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