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a painful scream
left my lips
it was like a shard
of glass
ripping my heart
ripping the
bones,
flesh,
smoke,
from the core of everything I knew about me.
I have watched me drown
in a river of tears
drowning in my own tears
I have watched me cry
cry until I fell
after flying
it's like being six
laughing and playing
in one minute
and then the next minute
lying not the cold hard ground
blood seeping
all from the knees
and all of can do
is cry your way out
because it hurts too much
to look at it
think of it
as soon as that scream
that painstaking raucous
of agony, anguish, angst
my eyes open slowly
my breathing uneven, shaky
my eyes frantic
searching for something
for something I could recognise
sweat was starting to collate on my forehead
my heart was thudding in my chest
everything felt so surreal
my hand subconsciously
flew up to my heart
trying to achieve sangfroid
but my motive had been lost somewhere
images
screaming
crying
everything was infiltrating my brain
taking a hold of me
and suddenly panic set in
before it slowly dissipated
into the black of the night
I laid there
for what felt like forever
in the void, just
blinking
planets and stars
hung upon nothing visible
closing my eyes
it was like someone threw
a bucket of paint
into the darkness
but even that
couldn't erase
the nightmare
I'd had for the consecutive night
wouldn't it just be so much better
just to take the easy way out?
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Poetrysad attempts of poetry sitting at death's door. NB : trigger warnings, containing depression, self harm, anxiety, and more.
