Beauty and the Beast

I Wasn't Strong Enough

Chapter Sixteen - I Wasn't Strong Enough

        Holy shit. I opened my eyes to bright lights that made the sun pale in comparison. I flinched back from the brightness and slowly, so slowly I let them get used to the lights. I was surrounded by white. Jesus. They could use some color. I was lying on white sheets in a bed with rails and there was a needle in my arm.

        "Anna..." Ahhh, I jumped at the sudden noise and fell over the right side of the bed. Hands grasped my waist and lifted me back into the bed. I looked up into Xavier's beautiful eyes. They were filled with worry and love? Warmth ran through me, I knew that in that moment, he would do anything for me and I could never leave him.

        "Xavier, why am I in a hospital room?" 

        "What's the last thing you remember, baby?" I remember talking with him about seeing Daddy, the feeling of Thomas running through the forest. I remember...

        "Oh my god! Xavier!," My voice cracked as tears filled my eyes. Memories from my past and from the fight in the forest played in my mind."Alex, he found me. I thought I saw the last of him a months ago." Tears streamed down my face as I remember Alex not stopping the second time he sneaked into my room.

        Xavier reached for me, he lifted me into his lap and held me, " Thomas told me that you have a history with Alex?"

        I looked down at my hands, twiddling my thumbs I told him of my past, " When I was in school, I was always know as the quiet bookworm who did not talk to anyone. I was always the loner cause everyone thought that my dad was crazy, with his inventions. Anyway, one day in junior year, Alex came up to me and he talked to me. He quickly wiggled his way into the walls that I built up against the people who were mean to my father, so everyone. Eventually, we started dating until he started to get weird. He was possessive and didn't let me do anything. I mean like he would stand outside my bathroom until I was done. Finally, I got fed up and broke up with him. I stopped seeing him for a while until a bout a year and a half ago.  I started to see faces in the crowd that looked like him, silhouettes outside my window. he climbed into my window and tried to have his way with me, but my father stopped him. A few months ago, before we moved here Alex did it again and my father wasn't there to stop him and I wasn't strong enough."

        I looked up at his face, it was contorted with rage. His eyes were shifting from the alpha red back to his normal hue. Why is he so angry at me? I tried to climb off of his laps. His arms tightened around me, "Where are you going?"

        "To let you calm down. You  look so angry at me..."  I hung my head in shame, why shouldn't he be angry with me, I am dirty.

        "Why would I be angry with you, Anna?"

        "Because I am dirty and tainted. I know you probably don't want me as a mate anymore now that you know that I'm not strong." as the words spilled from my mouth, I could feel my heart falling and breaking into a million pieces.

        Once again, anger filled his features, "Are you crazy? Why would you think that? It wan't your choice and you are not weak! A weak person would have broke but you didn't! You moved on and frankly, if you never moved on we never would have met..." He littered my neck with kisses, "I love you too much to think any less of you."

        My heart stopped. He loved me? Do I love him? I mean I guess we have been dating for a while adn werewolves move much faster than humans. Our relationship has already progressed far above three months and I love everything about him. His family, his habits, his mind.

        I looked up at him shyly, a smile gracing my features, "I love you too..." I whispered. His face practically broke in half with the joy in his face. He leaned into me and I let myself get lost in him. Alex and his problems flew from my mind as I got lost in Xavier and our love.