✨~Kairos~✨

Chapter 33

Sabrinas POV

I went out and left him all alone in the room, probably confused and doesn't know what the heck just happened.

All I was thinking about was that maybe I'm not the one for Shawn, maybe it's not meant be.

Why am I thinking that you may ask?

He hasn't proposed to me....
Half of the time we talk about being with each other forever and talking about the future.
Maybe having kids one day, and raising them back in Toronto.

We talk a lot about the future together, but it's like we're not actually taking any steps closer for that to happen.

Is Shawn not ready yet? We've been together for like 3 years.

I just have to get out of this building and get some clean air....

I walk down the stairs passing by Shawn's crew hanging out, I give them a small smile and continue my way out of the building.

We are in a warehouse in the middle of a huge field, how did they even find this place??

I walk out the doors and the wind hits my face, blowing my hair.

I continue walking to a huge wide spread field.

A million thought are going through my mind right now, and to be honest I don't know what to do.
I'm lost in my own thoughts and feeling.
I try not to overthink, or over complicate things,  I need to talk to someone and it sure isn't Shawn right now.

I take my phone out of my back pocket and dial Sarah.

(Phone call)

Sarah: hey sabrina, what's up?

Sabrina: I need to talk...

Sarah: sure

Sabrina: about Shawn..

Sarah: what happened now? Didn't you fly to him cause you miss him. What happened between you guys??

Sabrina: it's not something that happened between us, it's me. I'm in my headspace, and it's leading me in different directions.

Sarah: continue

I stop and exhale.

Sabrina: me and Shawn are close to having our 3 year anniversary together, it's the longest time I've ever been in a relationship.

Sarah: yeah, and I'm really happy for you both.

Sabrina: me and Shawn recently have been talking a lot  about the future together, and being each other "forever", creating a family and all that stuff, which are normal to talk about,right?

Sarah: yeah! It's is. Me and Peyton before we got married we would talk a lot about marriage and having a family.

Sabrina: the thing is it's like we're not taking any steps forward to reach that point. Like Shawn is the person I want to marry and have children with, and grow old with.
I get scared sometimes, he hasn't proposed to me nor gave a hint, which had me wondering "is he even ready yet?" "Does he want to grow old with me?".

Sarah: sabr-

Sabrina: I know, I know..."why would he talk  to me about all these stuff, but he doesn't want to marry me?" Sarah, people's feelings can change in a second. We haven't talked in MONTHS and I feel like we drifted apart a bit. Cause our busy schedules and being across seas. It's sucks!!! And to be honest, I'm trying to give as much time as I possibly can to hangout with Shawn. For example right now, I flew out cause I miss him and want to see him, would he have done the same?? I left my recording sessions and my meetings for the next films just so I can see Shawn, would he have done the same??