The Truth Untold ( TXT Soobin)

29. Can't be erased

" You can't go back and change the beginning, but you can start where you are and change the ending "

29

2 weeks
I've spent exactly 2 weeks at home. doing nothing... I was thinking that I would spent my whole "Life" like this... but this morning I got up and without realizing I started to get ready for "school"
this is killing me already! I'm dead and I'm waking to school like I have future that depends on education
can my life get more ironic?

when I went inside the school Lia immediately noticed me and went straight to me leaving Beomgyu alone.

-Mila... How are you?-she asked
-dead- simply answered
-Look Mila... I really wanted to tell you everything but I couldn't sorry
-You know I can't understand... Okay, I get it Yeonjun didn't tell me because he is Soobin's best friend...At least was... But You?! You always said that you don't like Soobin but still didn't tell me anything -I said angrily

I was really disappointed in her. I consider her as my friend but... I was wrong
-I couldn't Mila... I really wanted but Soobin knows my secret... If I told you he would say my secret to Beomgyu
-Is this about your reasons if being here?-I asked
-yes..-She answered slowly
-anyways... I have some questions and hope you can answer this honestly... At least now
-yes sure... But let's go somewhere quiet -she said and went to empty Room

***
-So when I came here I thought that I came here with my father and you were my cousin... Why?
-well, I'm not sure about this but... Probably it was before your death... I mean it was going to happen but you died
-okay, but he was my father... He was looked like him
-well he was actually...
- okay, now I'm even more confused... Explain everything
-Okay... your father came here with you. Firstly he couldn't remember anything... And be thought that he came here to live with you but then he remembered that he died... But you couldn't. He was scared so he asked me and the person that you know as your uncle to help him... Soobin offered your father to lie to you. he made him believe that it was much better if you don't know about anything. your father was confused and terrified sh he agreed. So we played as if we were your relatives and when your father realized everything it was already to late so he couldn't do anything...
-okay but I haven't seen my father for a while... Where is he now?
-I don't know... But Soobin might know.
-Okay... I'll go now-I said to her
-Mila I'm really sorry...
-Okay, I understand. But I think you should tell Beomgyu everything... You can't hide your secrets forever...
-I know... But you don't understand... It's complicated
-It is your life anyway...-I said to her and walked out.

***
I haven't seen Soobin or Yeonjun today. The school was over and I was about to go home. When I saw Yuna
-Hi- she said to me
-Hi Yuna
-I've heard that you have found out
-Yes, I did-I answered. Honestly, I feel bad for her... I mean she loved Yeonjun and now everything is over...
-and what you think about it?-She asked... What do I think about it?  No one asked me this question before.. to be honest, I don't even know. Everything happened to fast.
- everything is complicated...
-Yeah, don't worry you will get used to it soon. In the end, there is nothing we can do about it right?-she asked and smiled a little
-I guess No.
-have you talked to Yeonjun?-I asked
- yeah... But I don't expect anything from him... If I knew about what I did to him I would stay away from him-she answered slowly
-well, you didn't know. You didn't mean to hurt him

Yuna didn't know that he was the reason for Yeonjun's suicide... End when she found out It was too late, they both loved each other.  To be honest, I'm amazed by her. She loved him but still, she stayed away from him.  Even though she lied... She doesn't deserve this. I really feel bad for her

-but still everything happened because of me and no matter how bad I feel about it.  I can't change it -she answered. -I'll go now. Take care Mila.