The Truth Untold ( TXT Soobin)

26. Why?

"I lost something I never had, Yet it hurts just as bad "

26

It was already night when I got up from bad, Soobin wasn't there.
I don't know if I should go downstairs since I have no idea where Soobin is.
But I can't stay here forever...

After a long discussion that I had with myself. I decided to go downstairs to go my so-called "home"

When I went downstairs I saw Soobin, but I tried to ignore him and straightly went to open the door
-Mila- just when I was about to go outside Soobin hold my hand
-let go of me Soobin-I said not looking at him
-We need to talk
-About what Soobin? How you lied?! How all of you lied to me?!-I couldn't control my anger anymore, so I yelled at him. This time he gave up and let go of me
-What have I done to you? Why you hurt me like this?! -I asked, but soobin remained quiet-why aren't you talking? Didn't you insist that we need to talk?! Then answer my fucking question!
-this is what I do. I hurt everyone around me Mila.
-then why are you here? Why do you deserve a second chance Soobin?
-I don't deserve it. I don't but I'm still here. I don't know why...
-How could you lie to me...  But. I don't want to hear anything anymore... This is what you are... A person who enjoys seeing others hurt. So if. You had enough of me I'll leave
-I'm Sorry-He mumbled slowly
-don't give me another lie Soobin-I said to him
-I'm not lying
-Like I would believe
-yeah sure, why would you believe me...

-why am I here?-After a long since I asked
-I don't know... I usually know how others died... Actually, I'm the only person who can see others past... But in your case, I couldn't see anything and that why I thought that you... -he immediately stopped
-what you thought Soobin?!-I asked
-That you've done something bad. Really bad-he mumbled
-why would you think that?!
-Mila as I said I can see everyone's life. But I couldn't see yours. And I thought that you've done something terrible and it should have remained hidden -He answered.
What if he is right? What if I've done something terrible?! For a minute I couldn't say anything I was trying to remember something but I couldn't
-And who are you to judge me?! No, let me ask you what have you done before you died Soobin?! Were you a good person?!-I asked and looked at him.. He froze and couldn't say anything to me, guess he still hiding something from me. -Not going to answer
-If I'm going to answer you are going to hate me more.
-And isn't this what you deserve Soobin?- I asked
-Sure. From the moment when I remembered what have I done in the past I knew that I deserve only hate... And I couldn't understand why I was here...
-You must be here for a reason but hurting people isn't the reason. you're losing the second chance...
-I don't want this stupid chance! I want to receive my punishment for what I did!
-why do I even care... Goodbye Soobin. I hope I'm not going to see you again-I said to him and walked away

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when I went outside Yeonjun was there,  I just gave him disappointed looked
-I'll drive you -he said to me, even though I was he lied to me. I decided to go with him. I needed to ask him about everything

-how are you?-he asked while driving
-I don't know you tell me how dead people usually feel?
-Mila I'm sorry I really wanted to tell you. But it was the first time. It never happened before... Even though we don't remember our past properly we know that we died... We all were confused
-Yeonjun I'm fucking dead and I don't care what you all felt! I deserved to know The truth on time.
-I'm sorry I truly am.
-what happened to me? Why am I here?
-I don't know
-how can I find out?
-I don't know really. Even I didn't know how I died until Lia told me
-How she found out?
-I don't know. Probably like Soobin
-why Soobin is the only person who can see this?
-I don't know Mila. We are here without any clue. We just know that we were given a second chance. We don't even know how to pay for our sins.
-I can not believe I'm dead.
-you will get used to it...
-how long you have been here?-I asked
-7 years
-Soobin?
-Soobin came here after a month
-why are you here?
-Suicide -he mumbled
-do you know why Soobin is here?
-It isn't my story to tell Mila. I'm sorry
-Sure.-I said annoyed- why Soobin did this to me?!
-Soobin can't forgive himself, he is hurting himself more trust me
-what?
-he insists that he doesn't deserve to be loved, to be cared... He is doing everything to make people hate him...he isn't doing anything to hurt others Like this he is hurting himself more.

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