#MT25
"Thank-you, so much!" bulol kong nasabi iyon habang yumayakap sa mga asawa ng pinsan ni Horace.
They laughed and hugged me back, hindi pa ako nakuntento roon at humalik sa mga pisngi nila. Nagtatawanan sila. Ilan na lang kaming babaeng natira sa backyard, si Ametrine, Hassena, Shell at Fab. Fab was already sleeping on El's lap, Hase' cheeks were flushed by the alcohol effect and I didn't get the chance to see them all because my head ached.
"Let's call this a night now! Good night!" sigaw ng tumatawa at bulol na ring si Ametrine.
"You're so drunk, baby." Elos chuckled.
"Am I? Oh no, no! I'm not, baby. We should check our Amarise—"
Elos kissed her lips and laughed. "Okay, shh. We'll go up now."
Ametrine giggled. Natatawa ako sa amin, hindi ko akalain na madali rin silang tamaan ng alak.
"Babe, we should go now." Horace wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled me gently.
I nodded and smiled groggily, pumikit ang mga mata ko sa biglaang pag-ikot ng paningin. Agad naman akong nasuportahan ni Horace sa baywang at Rius sa aking siko.
"Just stay in the guestroom, less hassle."
"No, it's alright. Lapit lang."
"Mas lalo siyang mahihilo kung isasakay mo pa sa sasakyan," abiso ni Elexius. "There are plenty of guestrooms here, let's all stay here."
Horace sighed and lifted me, napahawak ako sa ulo ko.
"Wow, my head's spinning! It's so amazing!" I giggled like a kid. I feel so light but I could hear Horace' low groans as he carried me while I'm feeling kid.
Narinig ko ang paghalakhak nila.
"She can't stay overnight, hindi yata nagpaalam pa kay Nanay Luisa," ani Horace.
"Don't worry 'bout it, I'll make call upstairs and let her know."
"No! Mama shouldn't know I'm spinning! Naramdaman ko na 'to noon, e. Hindi ako puwedeng malasing-" sininok ako sa humaplos na emosyon sa aking sistema. I sobbed. "Please, don't stress her."
"Shhh." Horaced caressed my back and sighed. "I'll bring her up now."
Hindi ko na narinig pa ang mga tugon, sa paglalakad ni Horace habang dala ako ay abala ako sa pagkapit sa ulo ko upang hindi masyadong maalog.
I whimpered softly as I felt the soft bed behind, my heart is melting down with pain. "I'm sorry, Mama."
I could feel warm tears out of the sides of my eyes as I rolled my body and hugged a pillow tightly. I shook my head.
"Please, Mama. Forgive me, sorry po..." I started crying. I feel so emotional suddenly about my lies and dark mistakes, ganito rin kasi iyon. I got drunk and let the alcohol drown me until I don't know what was happening anymore.
Mas lalo akong umiyak habang pinapadyak ang mga paa ko sa inis at sakit na nararamdaman para sa sarili. I thought I was all right, I thought I wouldn't have nightmares about it again but I still feel so shattered.
"I'm sorry..." he whispered in my ear, he laid down beside me and pulled my arm to hug him.
Hinigpitan ko ang yakap sa kanya, umiling ako at humikbi. Ang bigat ng ulo ko pero mas mabigat ang pakiramdam ko, ni hindi alam kung bakit biglaan lang. I'm suddenly breaking down.
"Please, stop crying."
"I'm sorry. I'm sorry," I whimpered.
He hugged me tightly and kissed my cheek. "Baby, we can't bring it back anymore. You should get over it now so you won't cry for it again."
