Mason

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"𝔸𝕝𝕝 𝕤𝕙𝕖 𝕖𝕧𝕖𝕣 𝕨𝕒𝕟𝕥𝕖𝕕 𝕨𝕒𝕤 𝕦𝕟𝕡𝕣𝕖𝕕𝕚𝕔𝕥𝕒𝕓𝕝𝕖 𝕜𝕚𝕤𝕤𝕖𝕤 𝕒𝕟𝕕 𝕦𝕟𝕗𝕠𝕣𝕘𝕖𝕥𝕥𝕒𝕓𝕝𝕖 𝕝𝕒𝕦𝕘𝕙𝕥𝕖𝕣."

-𝔹𝕣𝕒𝕟𝕕𝕠𝕟 𝕍𝕚𝕝𝕝𝕒𝕤𝕖𝕟𝕠𝕣

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♬  ˢᵘᶜᵏᵉʳ ⁻ ᴶᵒⁿᵃˢ ᴮʳᵒᵗʰᵉʳˢ ♬

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Tonight has been amazing and surprisingly, Alex and I hadn't fought once the entire time. Though I couldn't say whether it was due to the fact that Alex, for whatever reason, seemed like a completely different person. Gone was the sarcastic, rude and far too cocky guy I had come to know whilst living her. Albeit, I did appreciate the lack of rudeness and arguments; I wasn't sure how I felt about this 'new' Alex. It may sound stupid to most, I slightly, sort of, missed the Alex I had thought he was. Of course, some things, I definitely wouldn't miss; I would miss his quick wit and sarcasm. Sure I wanted him to be nicer to me, but that didn't mean I wanted him to change completely. And although he was kind and thoughtful, his sudden shyness certainly took me by surprise as did the anxious state he seemed to be in the entire time.

Of course Alex and I knew each other but I wouldn't say we knew each other well; however, one thing I did know was that Alexander De Luca wasn't shy nor anxious. Despite these sudden weird quirks, I still managed to have an incredible time and Alex also won me a giant stuffed narwhal that I was completely and utterly in love with. We stayed quiet throughout the ride home, the only sound was that of the music playing through the speakers. It wasn't uncomfortable however and it was actually nice to be able to sit and think about our date.

If I'm going to be completely honest, it was still insane to me that Alex and I had actually gone on date in the first place. From what I had seen or heard, Alex didn't go on dates. Well, unless he was planning on getting laid at the end of it, which of course, wasn't the case here. Well, I didn't think it was. Did he think it was? Is that why he asked me out on a date in the first place, all because he wanted to fuck me? Panic began to set in as the worst case scenarios flew through my head. I wasn't ready for this. Did he think that that would be the outcome of this whole thing? Am I really that naive?

Before I could begin to hyperventilate, I quickly calmed myself; Well, I did the best I could in the time I had. This was ridiculous. I was being stupid and could be completely wrong and then what good would all of that be? Exactly. So calm your shit, Mase. Who said he even wanted to have sex with you? And even if he did, that doesn't mean that's why he took you on a date. It's unfair to jump to conclusions.

I mentally sighed thinking about the fact that I was yet again, having a conversation with myself. Does this me I'm insane? Because honestly, if I were to have a conversation with myself, outside of my head I would no doubt get some weird ass looks and possibly some concerning questions. I sure as hell would be worried about someone who was not only talking to herself but then answering her own questions.