Timid Heart (Eligible Heiress #3)

Chapter 26

"Maintaining a healthy diet and a regular exercise routine, as much as you are able, may potentially improve your sense of overall well-being."

Much to my relief when Dr. Prieto told me that I can still do some exercises but of course, with moderation. Everything in moderation as to not exhaust myself that would cause me a lot of sickness dahil hihina at hihina rin ang immune system ko dahil nga sa aking sakit.

He run down on me again the treatments that can possibly work for me and this time, I listened very carefully even though I am very sure right now that I will not take any of it. Tinandaan ko pa rin lahat ng sinabi niya and listed everything para makapag-research ako at mapag-aralan ko ang iba pang bagay na gusto kong malaman.

Pag-uwi sa condo ay agad akong kumuha ng pen and paper to list the foods that I can have and can't have and all others. A few reminders too regarding my health para hindi ko iyon makalimutan at mas matandaan as time goes on.

Dr. Prieto has been very honest with me and told me that my immune system will be more vulnerable after treatment which will put me at risk of infections. Dagdag pa ang ilang side effects like exhaustion and weight loss. But it can also help cure my cancer over time.

Alam ko naman na kapag tumagal na wala akong treatment ay ganoon na rin ang mararamdaman ko bandang huli kaya pinili ko na tumanggi sa therapy. I like to live my life without treatment and do things that I still can while I can. I'll enjoy the everyday gift that God will give me and live the moment.

"A healthy well balanced diet.... Complex carbohydrates, lean proteins, dairy products, plenty of fruits and vegetables, healthy fats." I read aloud what I had written down on a piece of paper that I intent to put on the fridge para lagi kong makikita at maaalala.

Okay. I believe I can live with these diet. Hindi naman pala mahirap sundin, I'll just have to be more careful. And with the list I made, it gives me a task tomorrow to go grocery shopping dahil wala ng laman ang aking refrigerator. I was waiting for my appointment with my doctor before planning on buying anything edible.

Hindi ko rin nakaligtaan na tanungin ang aking doktor tungkol sa pagkain ng mga matatamis dahil iiyakan ko talaga iyon kapag sinabi niyang bawal. I will definitely be depressed over that fact because I can't live without a dose of desserts.

May mga nabasa kasi ako na sugar makes cancer grow pero may mga nabasa naman ako na that in some studies that there is no evidence that eating sugar makes lymphoma, or any type of cancer, grow. There are also no research findings to show that if you do not eat sugar, your lymphoma will go away. So I had to make sure. This is my health we are talking about anyway.

Inulit niya sa akin ang salitang in moderation and watch my health. Lahat naman ng sobra ay hindi maganda, iyon nga lang medyo kailangan kong magselan dahil sa sakit ko. I should also come back to him for checkups para malaman kung kumakalat ang cancer sa ibang organ ng aking katawan which will cause organ failure na iniiwasan namin na mangyari since I refused any treatment. Very slow naman daw ang progress ng aking cancer which is good but we need to watch it as I go on dahil hindi maganda ang magiging complications once it spreads.

I understand his sentiment about me not having any kind of treatments and still he respects my decision and for that, I am glad.

Tinawagan ko si Warayne bago ako matulog at hindi niya naitago ang kanyang saya nang sabihin ko na sasama na ulit ako sa kanya sa pag-gym starting tomorrow. It excites me too na makabalik pero I need to do some changes in my routines and not go hard on myself.

Kailangan ko na i-remind ang sarili ko na hindi na ako ang Ace na malakas at walang sakit. This is me now, living as what I considered normal for me as to not stray from the things that I am used to do. I am having a lot of fun working out lalo na nung nakasama ko si Warayne. This is our bonding na gusto kong maglast as long as I can.