Tuesday 10:37pm
Today wasn't half bad. The group was normal. School was normal. Just an average day. It's actually not that bad writing shit down in here. I kinda like it.
Albert showed me a funny meme at lunch. I usually don't eat lunch and no one ever asks why. Not that I'd want them to though.
Overall, I just feel emotionless. I don't know why I need to feel like this. I have such a normal life. My mom and dad are happy. I have friends. A roof over my head. Why do I have to have depression. It's so exhausting and just mentally drains the hell out of me. I can barely stay focused on one thing.
I'm just always thinking. Thinking about the day. Things that happened 4 years ago. Just anything. I can't even cry. I want to, but I can't. It's like there's a wall of just blocked emotions.
This insomnia doesn't help at all. Because I always am thinking, I can't sleep. I just always have to be doing things or I'll just keeping thinking and thinking. I hate how that works.
Anyway, that was the entry for the day.
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My Journal. (Jalbert)
Fiksi Penggemar"Well, what makes you sad?" I fucking hate that question. Depression isn't about being fucking sad. I can't control what I fucking feel anymore. One minute I'm happy and shit and the next I wanna rip the veins from my arms out from under my skin...
