• Bts Angst •

「 yoonmin － 4 」

i looked down when he left..i'm such a fucking idiot, i shouldn't have said that. Why am i so fucking dumb when it comes to these things?

i made him cry again, he's right..i shouldn't say that i love him because i feel sorry and because i feel guilty..but its not that..i didn't say that because i'm guilty and shit..i really love him..i know its bullshit

everything is so messed up..

i went back to the dorm to see jin hyung looking at me in concern "hyung it didn't go well..i shouldn't have done that.."i cried sitting down on the couch he sat down beside me "its okay tae...at least you told him your feelings"i looked at him "but he doesn't believe me..he told me tha-"he cutted me off with a shh "i know i know he told me"

i sighed "what should i do hyung?"i asked "give him time first okay?"i nodded "then what"

"show him"i furrowed my eyebrows "show what?"i ask "show him that you love him, you love him because you do..show him that you love him not because you feeel pity and you feel sorry for him"i ran my fingers through my hair.

"okay hyung.."he then smiled and patted my shoulder "dont worry tae, everything will be okay soon"he gave me a reassuring smile"thank you hyung"i smiled back "you're welcome"

Yoongi's POV

"Yoongi hyung what's this?"namjoon asked as he shows me a neat purple box with a black ribbon on top of it "oh that..that's actually supposed to be for jimin"i say smiling "why didn't you gave it to him?"he asks sitting down on my bed

"well i was actually gonna give it to him but things didn't turn out well that day so i decided not to"i say sadly smiling"why?what happened that day?"i sat down beside him and gently grabbed the box from his hands "we broke up that day."he slowly nodded "mind sharing what happened?i'm really curious how you two..you know, broke up. If that's okay with you?"he asks

"its fine..uh how do i start...well it was 1 week before our anniversary and i actually made this really early before and hid it under my bed, everything turned out great with him. Nothing bad has happened but then i started to cough blood and faints really easily and all..and thats when i decided to go to the doctor and yeah i found out about the leukemia thing and i decided to break up with him even though that it wasn't that bad yet but i made the right choice..because it just got worse and now i only have two months left and i cant do anything now..i broke up qwith him on the day of our anniversary and yea that day i decided that i shouldn't give it to him..i told him that we both should find other people because i don't feel the same way anymore and i dont love him any more. He cried and begged but i ignored him and thats it.."namjoon looked at me with sad eyes

"dont look at me like that"i say and pushed away his face and he laughed a bit and sighed shooked his head "well..you could always tell him the real reason why you two broke up"i burried my face into my hands "look namjoon..even if i do nothing good will happen, and even if we get back..i wont be there beside him for a long time.."

"but at least when you tell him and when you both get back together, you can spend your remaining time with him"i stared at the box and stayed quiet, i scratched my head and started to think about what he said.

"Ugh just stop..i don't want to think of it anymore it's giving me a head ache"he chuckles a bit and nodded "here"he looks at me confused when i gave him the box "give this to him or whatever...if...if he doesn't want it, then just throw it away or somethin"

i stood up and stretched my body and continued to pack my things "okay so i'm almost done, these things right here you can have it or you can sell it or whatever, then these things right here..are actually"

"for jimin?"he asks and i nodded grabbing the box "so your going to give this to him along with these things"

"hyung you should be the one giving these gifts to him"he says looking at me "i don't have any time for that"i say "oh really"he sarcastically says "look if i see him i wont be able to control myself.."

"so what hyung?that's fine..i know you miss him and i know he does too"

"fine!"

hey peeps, i'm sorry if i have been inactive for awhile hell is keeping me busy..i have a lot of drafts though and i plan to publish them soon and yeah i'm sorry again!

and also

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO OUR LIL MEOW MEOW<3<3<3<3<3